Hello fellow humans…
I know I’ve already harped on about Preptober (it’s not going well.) so I wont go into detail but I did want to touch on productivity and my lack thereof. We live in a world where being productive is everything, if we aren’t doing twenty things at the same time then we’re lazy, if we didn’t achieve everything on our to-do list then we’re lazy… We are constantly busy and judging others for not being busy. I don’t really judge others that much but I do judge myself. I can be so mean to myself if I’m not motivated, I will beat myself up horrendously if I don’t achieve everything on my to-do list. I compare myself to others, I see how busy and successful everyone else is and here I am, still struggling with existence.
The first thing I try to remind myself of is that everyone is different, success looks different to everyone. Yes, we live in an extremely busy world, we live in a competitive society, and a lot of the time it’s a judgmental society but why do we feel the need to compete? Why do we have to deal with other peoples judgments? We are all unique and we should start celebrating that.
So yes, I am behind on Preptober and I will probably be very behind in NaNo, I might fail completely or I might ‘win’, what matters is that I try and I do my very best. I could walk away with 20,000 words or 50,000 words either way that’s more than what I started with.
I guess I just wanted to put that out there… Your worth is not determined by others and what they deem enough. Be proud of every little thing you achieve, even if its just that you got out of bed today. I’m proud of you. 🙂
Until next time,
Love and Light.
Paint and My Mat 