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Grief

Hey everyone, how are you? I hope you’ve all had a beautiful week.

I thought I would write about grief today. I think at this point you all know what I have been through this year and I was just talking to one of my cousins, she lives overseas and I haven’t seen her since I was a kid but we have always stayed in touch. She messaged to check in on me and my dad. While we spoke I got to thinking about how I really feel. What my grief feels like and I explained it to her like this…
We all grieve differently and life tends to carry on. I can’t blame people for not standing still with me. So, it’s me and my dad, we’re alone, we’ve only got each other and we’re standing still for the moment. It’s tough but it’s better than forcing ourselves to walk before we’re ready.
That is what grief feels like for me. It feels like I am standing still while the rest of the world keeps moving on. I am in my own pain, standing still.

I hope you guys are okay and managing during these tough times. The world is a little crazy right now and I am sure we are all experiencing many emotions. I am sending out loads of love to everyone. Stay safe out there.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Life Right Now

Hiya everyone! I hope you have all been keeping safe and healthy!

I just thought I would give a little update on my life right now. I have been working really hard on my writing recently. I have had to make some tough choices and I am having to look at my life from a different angle.
So I have gone into October with a different game plan. I am focusing on my main goal which is getting my novel published but I am also doing Nanowrimo this year. I skipped the past couple of years but I am excited to partake this year. So I have been doing a lot of preptober stuff, which has been really exciting! I have been making playlists, mood boards, I’ve been outlining and focusing on research.

I have been grieving and writing, writing and grieving. Sometimes I am worried that too much of my grief is seeping into the book but that’s okay. That’s what editing is for. So, that is my life currently.

What have you been working on? Anything creative happening in your life? Creativity is the best isn’t it?

Sending you all so much love and good vibes!

Until Next Time,

Namaste.

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Just Let Go.

Hiya! So, I disappeared again. Life has been a bit hard recently and I am sure everyone can relate to that but I don’t want to lose touch with my blog so, I will try to post at least once a month from now on.

I have been battling with depression and obsessive thoughts lately and I have found myself gravitating to my watercolors and gouache. My mind clears when I paint and I am so grateful that there is an activity that can keep me sane. We need silence and peace in our minds and I am constantly trying to find ways of calming my obsessive thoughts. Letting go is so important. I am guilty of forgetting to help myself find silence but when I do, it feels wonderful.

Here are some of my little creations.

It’s not much and it doesn’t have to be good. I paint for me and my mental health. I paint to let go. I hope you guys are giving yourselves the chance to let go too. These are difficult times and we need to give ourselves a break from the noise every now and then.

I am, as always, sending loads of love and good vibes to everyone on this beautiful planet. Stay strong and safe. Be gentle with yourselves and others.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Embrace The Change

So today I reached a bit of a breaking point and I realized I have to make a change. I need to start fresh. My mental health has been suffering and a lot of my old issues have come back. I have been suffering with flashbacks and I am in a constant state of fear and crippling anxiety. I’m glad I made this decision because now I can focus on a new start. There is a lot of change on it’s way but I have always loved change. I do pride myself in being very flexible and open to change. I am going to have to make some more difficult decisions in the near future but I think it’s all for the best and I look forward to seeing where the rest of the year will lead me. I hope that with the change I will be able to start healing properly.

Change can be wonderful and I often encourage people to embrace change. It can be very beneficial. Here is an affirmation for those who struggle with change.

I trust in life and I am safe in all situations. Change allows me to grow and flourish. All is well in my world.

How do you feel about change?

I hope you are all keeping well! Until next time…

Namaste.

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Being Social

I keep amazing myself at how bad I am at socializing lately. I was taught from a young age how to interact with people and how to talk about multiple subjects but this year has screwed me up in that department. I am suddenly the most awkward weird person in conversation. I’m pretty sure it’s just because I have been out of practice since lockdown but it still shocks me every time. I got my hair cut yesterday and my stylist is an old school friend, so obviously she wants to catch up while doing my hair. I kept falling over my words, saying strange things. I even stuttered a couple of times. I can only shake my head at myself. Bless her though, she still wants to grab lunch one day soon. I’m probably being too hard on myself. But still…
This has been going on for a while now.

So what I’ve started doing is reading out loud. Mostly classics. I like to read more difficult pieces too, so that I can keep building my vocab which has dwindled lately. Language and speech is like anything else in life, you just need to practice!

Do you guys feel the same way? Has lockdown and the energies of the world kind of screwed up your ability to be around people, is talking an issue or is it just me?

Anyway, I thought I would air my feelings on this. I hope you guys are having a beautiful day.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Something Creative

Hi guys, I’ve been having a hard time. I have been second guessing everything, paranoia has been pestering me and my anxiety is high. Not to mention the grief. I want you guys to know that it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to say it out loud. Know that you can sit with those emotions. Feel them. Your feelings are real, it’s part of what makes us human. Sometimes we just need to let it out.

So, with that said, there is something I enjoy doing when I’m feeling low and I want to change my energy. I do this when I have worked through the emotions and I want to move on.
I create mood boards with affirmations. It’s a fun, creative thing to do and I thought I would share a few that I created this evening. It just helps to shift my focus. Sometimes I create a playlist to go along with the mood boards too.

Doing something like this may seem silly at first but after a while you may get into it. It can be helpful to give something visual for the brain to latch on to and with the added affirmations it can make a huge difference. Just thinking up the affirmations can shift your energy completely. I make sure I am reminding myself to smile while doing this. I put on some of my favorite music (I’ve been on an Electropop and R&B kick lately.) I might dance around a little at my desk. The point of this is to distract myself and I find it very effective as long as I am doing it consciously.

Let me know if you guys try this. 🙂 I am sending you all good vibes!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Going Somewhere New.

Hey guys! I have escaped for a while. I forced myself to get out of the house. I think it was about time that I got some country air. I have been stuck in my house with no one to talk to for just over three months now. I am getting really tired of talking to myself and unfortunately my dogs can’t reply to my ramblings. (How cool would that be if they could though?)

So when my aunt invited me for a midweek getaway, I agreed to join her. It’s the first time I have left my dogs and my father since my mother passed. It’s been an emotional time. I cried for ages the first night. It just felt so wrong to be away from home. I phoned my father and then before I knew it we were both crying.
Grief is a funny thing, you never know when it might hit and when it does hit, it hits hard. My mother has been gone for three months now and I know that if I don’t start pushing myself to actually go out and do things and be with people, I’ll just live my life indoors. I will become more of a recluse than I already am. I know that my mom would have wanted me to carry on living, to do things and experience things. So here I am, sitting in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by trees and pretty birds.

I need to keep reminding myself that its good to get away, change my environment but its hard and I accept that. I have had a few breakdowns, it has been messy but I allow myself to feel the emotions.

I will be home tomorrow, back to my normal routine, so I will try to make the most of my last day here. I hope all of you are having a good week and I’ll post soon!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Finding Peace

Hello everyone! I hope you all had a good weekend.

In a recent post I spoke about coming back to your breath as a way of being in the present moment. I know that some people struggle with just relying on the following of the breath taught in meditation. I know that sometimes that isn’t helpful enough. I do suffer with a lot of anxiety and as I have said, coming back to the present moment is a fantastic way to move on form those disturbing feelings. Last night I was having horrible flashbacks of my mothers death and I tried to come back to my breath, follow it in and out to calm myself and come back to the moment, but the memories were unrelenting. So, I did something new and I wanted to share it with you. Maybe you will find it helpful too.

When, in a time of anxiety or negative thinking, see a candle in your minds eye. A bright shining flame dancing lightly. Focus on the flame and breathe deeply. Your thoughts may try to distract you, they may try to snuff out the flame but just remember that you can always come back to the flame. The flame is the present moment. When you need to come home to yourself. Just look at the flame. It’s as simple as that but I do find the visual helpful.

I hope this helps you too and I hope you are having a peaceful Monday. 🙂

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Affirmations

Hey everyone! I hope you have all been staying safe and healthy out there!
I really want to get back to my practices. I have gotten back to my yoga and I have been working out everyday. (Chloe Ting has been killing me.)
I’ve also started painting again. Now I want to get back into my gratitude and affirmation practices. I also need to start meditating every day again.
Today I thought I would start with the affirmations. So I have put together a list of affirmations and I’m going to post it here!
Whenever I think of a new one I will add it to the list. 🙂
Feel free to use any of the affirmations that may resonate with you.

I AM ATTRACTING PEACE AND LOVE INTO MY LIFE
I AM SAFE IN EVERY AREA OF MY LIFE
THE UNIVERSE LOVES AND SUPPORTS ME, ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD
I AM SURROUNDED BY LOVE AND KINDNESS
I LIVE A PEACEFUL LIFE

I AM SAFE
I AM LOVED
I AM CREATIVE
I AM SURROUNDED BY HAPPINESS AND LOVE
I AM SECURE
I AM INSPIRED BY LIFE
LIFE IS WONDERFUL AND ALL IS WELL
I AM ABUNDANT
I AM BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT
ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD
I AM OPEN TO CHANGE
I GO WITH THE FLOW OF THE UNIVERSE
I AM STRONG
I ATTRACT GOOD THINGS INTO MY LIFE
I AM SURROUNDED BY WONDERFUL PEOPLE

That’s it for today. I will keep adding to this list.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Starting Again.

Hey everyone!

So, today I decided to do something I haven’t done in a long while! I picked up my paints and paintbrush. I want to get back to my art. I recently sketched a character that I liked the look of, crazy long neck, strange features… small mouth. I don’t know why I felt a connection to this character but I thought he deserved some color. So I sketched him again with a little more detail and I added some paint. I really like the look of him and I think I will be keeping him as a character to return to. The painting is still rather rough but I am happy with it as my return to art. I thought I would share what I did with you guys. The other painting was just a warm up to play with the paint and colors.

Have you guys been creating anything interesting?

Anyway, I hope you guys have been staying happy and healthy!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Breathe

Life keeps throwing me curve balls. We have had yet another death in the family and I just can’t wrap my mind around the truth of 2020. Besides the deaths, I have been struggling with my anxiety and mental health too. Its been particularly hard over the past couple of months.

I have to keep reminding myself to come back to the present. I was listening to a wonderful podcast not long ago and it was reiterated over and over again that if we are struggling with anxiety or negativity then all we need to do is come back to the breath, come back to the moment. Automatically when we focus on our breath we are brought back to the present moment. That’s why in meditation we are told that during the practice, if our mind wanders then all we need to do is focus on the breath.

Coming back to the breath, back to yourself is so incredibly powerful but I find we forget to do it actively throughout our day. I am in the process of trying to train myself to keep coming back whenever my mind wanders too far. Too far being the past (especially the past) and the distant future, the fears of the future. I of course allow myself to think of the future in terms of positive goals and things I have to think about like making dinner but those aren’t harmful to my mental health. It’s when those niggling worries or the regrets resurface that I need to remind myself to turn away from that, and find my breath.
It really is as simple as breathing. We are remarkable beings, it is so simple to find ourselves, to center ourselves but with all of the conditioning we have been through since birth, we find it difficult. I have been practicing meditation and yoga for many years now and I still struggle.

We need to be aware of our presence because ultimately we are the present moment. Everything that is happening in our body, all of our functions are happening now. If we are aware of ourselves, we realize that we are always present. Our thoughts need to center back to our bodies, to our energy, to our present. There is no point in fretting over the future or regretting our past because right now, our bodies are functioning. We are breathing, we are digesting, we are seeing, we can smell something. We are fine, we are safe in this very moment because we are alive and that is a blessing.

I can go on and on about this but ultimately, we don’t need to make it hard. It doesn’t have to be a chore. It doesn’t have to be scary. It is as simple as breathing and watching that breath, feel that breath. Place your hand on your tummy and breathe. Feel the air rush into your lungs as you breathe in, feel your rib cage expand and smile.
The first time I practiced this, many years ago… I was in a really bad place mentally and I was told to meditate. I started with simple breathing exercises. Coming back to myself, to my breath and feeling the amazement, the miracle of my body brought me to tears. It was like I came home. Which I did.

So, I encourage you to do this. Go home to yourself today. Experience it with an open loving heart. Be present with yourself.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Let Hope In

Hey guys! I hope you’re staying sane out there!

Things are going better here. I have found hope again and boy am I holding onto it tightly. I love the feeling of being hopeful. I have woken up four days in a row feeling hopeful. When my mom passed away I thought I would never see the beauty in the world again. I felt there would only be darkness because she was my light. I still struggle but this hopeful feeling is encouraging me to start living again.

Losing my Aunt/Godmother so soon after my mom was crippling and since then there have been two more deaths close to us and my Uncle is extremely ill in hospital. Today my father lost a good friend of his suddenly. So the feeling of death is still heavy but at the same time I can see the new leaves on the trees, we are going into our spring, the birds are happy and there is birth all around me. A friend of mine just became a granny again. My little cousins keep growing and I have another little cousin on the way. There is death but there is also new life. I can see the beauty in that and I know I need to embrace both the light and the dark. I will continue to go with the flow of my emotions and when I am feeling good, I’ll allow myself to enjoy it.

It’s like a friend of mine was saying, (she lost her dad a few years ago.) there will be times when the emotions hit me so hard I’ll fall. I will miss my mom more than anything in those moments but at the same time I must remember that just because I am feeling good that doesn’t mean I have forgotten about her. I don’t need to feel guilty about it. (easier said than done, I know).

2020 has been a shit show for all of us and I am happy to say that I am looking forward to 2021, I am hoping for some good moments, lots of excitement and adventure. I will allow the hope to grow and flourish in my heart. I look forward to sharing good times with my family and friends. I am thankful for the wonderful future on it’s way to greet me.

I am sending you all loads of love and good vibes.

Until next time,
Namaste.

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Feel The Love

How do you feel at this moment? With everything going on in the world, I often ask myself this question. How am I feeling right now? Often the answer is tired and lonely. Then, I remember that I am not alone at all, just outside my door, the sun is shining, the birds are singing, the bees are buzzing. All I need to do to feel better is step outside.

You are not alone, I promise you that. The sun rises every morning, go and greet it. Feel the love radiating down from it. Kneel down and touch the grass, or the ground… feel it’s warm embrace. Nature loves us so much and yet we do not feel it. When I feel down I know that I can go outside, no matter where I am and find some love in the nature and elements around me. Perhaps a playful breeze or some rain, a flower or a bird singing it’s song. Go outside and feel that love!

Until next time, and as always…
Namaste.

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Do You?

You know that feeling when someone makes you feel as light as a feather. Makes you realize that there’s more to relationships, friendships, people and life. I treasure those feelings. In times as hard as these it’s important to hold onto the people that make your life extra special. The people that show up for you everyday, know that it’s okay to need space, respects different opinions and makes you feel safe…. hold on to those people.

I have been blessed with a few people like this but one in particular has been keeping me sane in these extremely hard times and I am so grateful.
Tonight she brought the biggest smile to my face and my heart is actually feeling happy. I have no idea how long this will last but I’m going to enjoy it while it does. I was so taken by these good mushy feelings that I had to write about it.

So, if you ever feel this way… just sit in the good feelings, let them sink into your bones. Allow the good feelings, the fluttering, the love, the joy, the laughter… allow them to take over. Welcome them. There’s enough darkness in the world, you can afford to ponder on these good things for a little while.

I hope you are all well and safe out there. Sending loads of good vibes to everyone.

Until next time,
Namaste.

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My Safe Space

I have officially returned to my mat. My safe space.

I have been doing yoga everyday for a week now and I am very happy about it. I have missed being on the mat, I have given myself this week to get back into my practice. I step on my mat everyday, even if it’s just for ten minutes, even if all I do is stay in child’s pose, I am okay with that. I showed up for myself and I can’t help but feel a peace flourishing in my body and spirit. I am still hurting, mourning and I cry everyday but I know that while I am on my mat, it is a safe space to let all of those emotions out.

A few days ago, I decided to practice some Yin and I focused on my grief, on the heaviness in my heart and body. The power thoughts that guided me through the practice helped me break down. I didn’t realize how much I had been holding back and bottling for the past few weeks but a lot of it came out and that never would have happened if it wasn’t for my conscious decision to get back onto my mat and take my practice seriously again.

My body is becoming accustomed to the movements again, the flow is returning to my aching body and heart. I cry and feel all the pain while becoming stronger, inside and out.
My mom always did yoga, she started when she was a very small child and she instilled the practice in me. We went to classes together, we meditated together and I know that she would want me to come back to myself. I am doing my best.

Yoga is a blessing in my life and I am so very thankful.
I thought I would share this with you guys and I hope that you are all doing well, keeping safe and healthy.

Until next time,
Namaste.

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I’m Alive!

Hi everyone, I have taken time to myself to mourn…. I thought it would be for the best, my Aunt passed away a month after my mom’s passing. So it’s been a time. At this point I feel like I need to try and get myself into a routine again, I will try to write more often, I will do my best to blog more and I have started a new project that I have been enjoying. I want to start working out again so it’s all rather…. good.

I have started counting my blessings again and doing my gratitude. I have beautiful friends and family. There are good things I have to start focusing on again. Life is super hard at the moment, besides what’s been happening in my own life. The state of the world is very worrying and my heart goes out to all of those who are suffering at the moment.

I just wanted to touch base with you guys, and say hello. I am alive and I am definitely going to start posting more regularly again. I do want to make some changes, add a few things and yeah, I have loads of ideas. I’m going to try and find my bliss and I want to keep you guys in the loop.

So, I’m going to leave this post here and I hope you are all staying healthy and safe. Don’t forget that you are amazing, loved and so special. YOU ARE ENOUGH!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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One Day At A Time.

So, here I am. If you didn’t know already my mother passed away two weeks ago. This has been an extremely challenging time. There have been endless tears, pain and relentless heartache. It was expected but the shock was unbelievable. I miss her more than I can say with words. That said, I just wanted to let you guys know that I am taking it one day at a time and I will be back to a more regular posting schedule.

I will hopefully stop crying for long enough to actually write a full post one day soon. So for now I will just wish you all a beautiful weekend. I hope you are all staying healthy and safe.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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New Post

I know it’s been a long time but life fell apart. This had been the hardest week of my life and I wrote about it on My Shoes. So if you would like to have a read, please do.
All I am going to say here is, please cherish your families, keep them close and love them with everything you’ve got. It hurts when you lose them.

I hope everyone has been keeping safe, it is super cold here so I’m trying to stay bundled up and warm. I am going to try and get into a normal routine again once life has settled down a bit. As always I am sending you all good vibes and love.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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What Are You Grateful For?

What are you grateful for today? As I have said so many times before. I think it is incredibly important to be grateful for what we have. For the good things in our lives, the things that make a difference.
So I will share a few things on my list today. I woke up not feeling the best and life is not easy at the moment. My mom’s health is getting worse everyday. So here I am, I will list some of the things that I am grateful for today. I encourage you guys to make a list too. at least five things a day.

I am grateful for my body because it keeps me moving, it keeps everything working so that I can keep taking care of my family.
I am grateful for my mother because moment I get to spend with her is a blessing.
I am grateful for my family because they are there for me when I need them.
I am grateful for the sun because sitting in the sun gives me energy and makes me feel so much better.
I am grateful for my animals because they keep me smiling and positive.
I am grateful for the food I eat everyday because it nourishes me and keeps me alive.

There’s a few from my list today. I hope you are all well and staying healthy. As always I am sending you love and light.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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How We Change and Grow.

I find it amazing how we change. We are constantly changing which is amazing! That’s how it’s supposed to be! How sad would it be if we are just the same person for years and years until the day we die. I think as humans we need to change, we learn, we grow and I find that the most beautiful part of being human. Old parts of us die and new parts bloom. That doesn’t mean we lose the core part of who we are it just means we are improving ourselves, settling into ourselves.

One of the ways I have changed over this past year is I have been craving the daylight, the morning sun… it makes me happy. There is of course the charm of night but mostly I just like to sleep at night so that I can wake up to a new beautiful day. I have in many ways become more hopeful. Which is lovely. I have been finding more comfort in the ways I have changed. I have been pushing myself to learn and try new things. When we welcome change, there is so much more to learn. Ultimately I want to be the best version of myself. I am the only one who can create that for myself. You need to love you, you need to nurture yourself.

Finding Love For Yourself.

One other thing I want to mention here is loving yourself because it goes hand in hand with changing and growing.
It is true…. How can someone else love you if you don’t love yourself? Louise Hay speaks of this often. I always encourage people to read her books, I have learnt so much from her.
Anyway…
If you don’t love yourself, you are always going to doubt the love others have for you. You will probably start fights or feel horrid about the relationship or friendship because you won’t believe their love. You need to love yourself first. That doubt will fester and break up your relationship or friendship. You won’t be fulfilled until you love yourself. Give yourself the respect and love that you are looking for from others. Your life will become so much brighter and you will be able to shine. No one will ever know you better than yourself. You know what you need.

I’m going to leave this here but I am as always sending you all so much love and light.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Have A Cup Of Tea

There are times when I am so dead on my feet. I want to give up and just sleep all day long. I know that I can’t do anything like that. I can’t just run away, I can’t stop living and ultimately I don’t want to but I’m sure you can all relate, there are times when life is just too much. When it hurts to breathe, to carry on, to keep smiling. There is no shame in that. Being human is hard. Living is hard but I try to remember the good things, the things that make me want to carry on, that make me smile, that keep me standing and moving. It is so important that we give ourselves the chance to believe in life again. 🙂

Life is so beautiful, it is magical and full of love and wonder. There is so much to appreciate and be thankful for. So the first thing I do when life is too much, when life is suffocating me… I make a cup of tea or coffee. I sit down with my delicious hot drink and allow myself a moment. I take a moment to breathe, to enjoy something simple and easy. Something comforting.

I want you all to know, that no matter what your life is like or what kind of hardships you have, your feelings matter and it’s okay to feel sad, or anxious, or however you’re feeling but remember to come back to yourself. Give yourself a big hug. Allow yourself a moment to feel better. Do something you enjoy. Find that time. Life wont fall apart and stop if you take a moment for you.

I am sending you all love and good vibes.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Update!

I have updated My Shoes. Please do go have a read if you’d like.
If you don’t know already, My Shoes is a page I started, where I share my journey of supporting a loved one who has a terminal illness. No matter how far along your loved one’s illness has progressed I am sure there is something relatable in my posts over on My Shoes.

Thank you all for reading and being here.

Sending you all good vibes. Stay safe out there!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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How Are You?

How have you guys been? I know it’s been a while. Life has been a bit difficult, I will post an update on My Shoes today too, my mother hasn’t been great. Therefore I have been away from my computer and I just haven’t been motivated to write but I’m trying to pull myself together now.

I have been getting nothing done. I guess that’s a lie but I feel like I’ve been getting nothing done. I have been making an effort to be outside. I sit in the sun everyday for a few minutes (get your Vitamin D!) I have been organizing all the clutter and I’ve been unpacking some boxes that were still sitting in the garage. That’s been pretty fun, since I’ve been especially nostalgic lately. I think one of my favorite things to do is decorate and make my house a home. There is nothing like a cozy home. Dogs running around, my childhood everywhere I look, familiar paintings and colors. My mom has always loved orange, and I must say, now that I have been unpacking all the warm colored decor, I feel so much better.

So what have you guys been doing? I hope you have all been staying healthy and safe. I know that this is just another season, it’s a time that will pass and we will all get through it. Times might be tough, but so are you! Whoever you are, where ever you are… I know you can find the strength and the courage to keep on living, to find your happiness and to be kind to yourself and others.

As always, I am sending you all good vibes.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Organizing

It’s good to stay clean and organized, an organized space helps to create an organized mind. So, today I have some free time and I think I will be spending it organizing. I have three rooms that need a complete turn around. I need to find spaces for everything and I want to deep clean the storage spaces in those rooms. One of the rooms is the library/ my studio, I need to move all the shelves and repack them. I have too many books and not enough shelves, so I need to get creative. Maybe I’ll post some pics of my finished shelves at some point. I just want to get it looking pretty first.

I have so many boxes to break down that have just been accumulating and accumulating over the past few months. It will open up so much floor space. Lets see how much I can get done today. I also need to vacuum… who here can relate? I love the smell of vacuuming… or is that just me?

So I look forward to more of an organized mind at the end of today, lets hope it all goes to plan.

I hope you guys are all having a beautiful productive day!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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It’s Cold

I don’t know about you and people usually think I’m crazy but I love winter! Here, the cold has arrived. We have said goodbye to our very long summer and the trees are losing their leaves. It is fresh and crisp, I wake up in the early mornings and take deep breathes, I smell the air outside… winter is in the air and it smells glorious.

Winter is a time of fluffy blankets, warm drinks and cuddles. I prefer winter clothes, the layers, the wool… Winter may be harsh and difficult but I am blessed to find comfort indoors, wrapped in blankets, cuddling with my dogs.

Winter inspires me to ask myself difficult questions, find ways that I may grow and improve, going into the new spring months. I use the cold months to get to know myself again. I allow myself extra time and slow movement. I find winter the best time to write. To sit in a corner all warm and protected, going on grand adventures with characters in my book.

Then there’s reading, who doesn’t love curling up with a good book? The cold air coming in through the window, hot coffee in your hand while you read.

You may not agree but you have to admit there is something charming and intriguing about winter, the circle of life, death and rebirth. There is much to learn from winter.

Which season is your favorite?

Sending you all good vibes.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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I Was Social!

During this time we are all hermits, unless you have gone back to work. I have been home for goodness knows how long and the other day I spoiled myself and my mom to a meal from our favorite local coffee shop. The owner came out to deliver and we got to have a two minute chat outside my gate. Yes, we were both wearing masks and kept our distance but boy! It was strange talking to someone. Another human that doesn’t live in my house. Speaking to someone in the flesh is a whole other thing. I couldn’t believe my reaction, I was nervous and shaky! I have the known the woman for years! I had to giggle at myself.

I find it fascinating how our bodies and minds get used to being alone, away from other peoples energies. The minute I felt her energy I started shaking and I got tongue tied. It sure is going to be interesting when I can start leaving the house again. I’ll have to take it super slow or I’ll get really overwhelmed.

Do you guys have the same thing?

I hope you are all well and staying healthy. Sending out good vibes to everyone!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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The Little Things

The sun coming in through a window.

A sweet breeze hitting your face.

Raindrops on the window.

The smell of freshly baked bread.

The first sip of your morning coffee.

Flowers enjoying the sun.

The uninterrupted blue sky.

The birds chirping and singing to the morning sun.

Cuddles from your pets.

Cuddles.

Stretching in the sun.

The feel of the earth beneath your bare feet.

Cool water quenching your thirst.

Bird watching.

Listening to the trees singing in the wind.

A clean kitchen.

The smell of dinner cooking.

Looking at the stars shining bright at night.

The moon.

I think it is very important to take note of all the small things that bring a smile to our faces, or make us feel peaceful. So I wrote down a few things that give me those good feelings. Once we become aware of the good things in our life, no matter how small, we invite more good. We deserve good things, things to make us happy and warm inside. Find those things. Write them down, become very aware of them while you experience them and be thankful!

I hope you are all keeping well and I wish you all a beautiful day!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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There Is Beauty.

I’m sure I have spoken about this before but it keeps popping up today. There is beauty everywhere. There is beauty in peace and in chaos.

I have been in slight chaos lately, it may not seem like chaos to others but if they had to live in it I’m sure they would be able to see the chaos too. Though, this morning I could see the beauty in the chaos. In my chaos. Once I could see it, see the worth in it, it started to feel better. It got less chaotic. Isn’t it amazing how just a change of interpretation can turn into a change of heart?What once was ugly, is now beautiful. What was hard, became easy. What was a chore became something I do with a smile on my face.

So I challenge you to see the beauty in your chaos, in your ugly, in your chores…. it will make a world of difference. it wont seem so harsh anymore. It will become better, easier and you will grow. We are here to see beauty, to experience the good things…. lets make more good things! Turn the bad into good.

I hope you are all having a beautiful day!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Just Feel

So, yesterday I spoke of intuitive movement, today I would like to talk about intuitive painting. I find this a freeing activity. Once again, this is just for you, no ego is allowed in this activity. Still mind and intuitive movement.

What I do first is meditate, I will lay out my tools and paints in front of me. I will close my eyes and meditate, not for long, just a few minutes of deep breathing and calming of the mind. I allow my body to relax. I will then open my eyes and start painting. I will allow myself free movement with as little thought as possible. This is an activity of feeling not thinking. I use the colors that call out to me, I start painting. There isn’t a plan, just movement.

Whatever wants to come out, can then come out, in a healthy colorful way. Perhaps I will paint my tears or shapes representing how my tears make me feel. I may paint what happiness feels like, or love, loss, guilt…. there are no rules. What needs to happen on the page will happen. I find this is a good way of letting the overflowing emotions go. A way of moving away from the emotions to feel some peace. I lay it out on the page to better understand them, to accept them and then to let them go.

Besides it being a good way to make peace with yourself and your emotions, it’s also fun! Letting yourself run free with paint! It’s a wonderful feeling.

Do you guys have a special way that you like to let go of emotions?

As always I hope you are all well and safe, I am sending you all good vibes!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Move Around More!

I think it is so important to keep movement going. Your body needs movement, it helps with mental health. The mind needs to stay still and the body needs to move. Let us find that sweet spot where the two meet. Start moving around while keeping your mind still, like a walking meditation. What I like to do is intuitive movement. I like to get out into the sun, so I will take my mat outside, (I am blessed with a beautiful garden.) I will find a good spot and I will stand there on my mat for a couple of minutes. I will find my silence. I will calm my mind and slowly, gently, in my own time…I will start to move. I will let the breeze guide me, or the birds song move me. Find what wills you to move and just, move. Don’t worry about how you look, remember the mind must be still, so no ego is allowed to barge into this special time. Do whatever comes natural to you, lift your arms, spin around, sway your hips… just move.

I often do the same with my yoga practice, I move intuitively. The positions I need will find me and I will melt into my mat. It doesn’t matter how long you do these practices for, it could be five minutes or an hour. That is up to you and what your body needs, obviously if your schedule doesn’t allow for an hour, at least try to give yourself five minutes everyday of intuitive movement with a still mind. I of course encourage you to try this outside, but I do understand that not all of us has outside space to escape to in these trying times, so perhaps do this close to a window where you can hear, see and feel the outside nature floating in around you.

Remember, no judgement. This is all part of self care.

I am, as always sending you all loads of love and good vibes.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Look Up

I always find it so amazing how I feel when I look up. It doesn’t matter where I am, but when I look up I always seem to find something interesting to look at. Say I look up at a ceiling, perhaps the ceiling is cracked. I can create art out of the cracks. Or I could be outside, the sky above me, there could be clouds to create shapes and stories out of…. maybe the sky is a deep blue and the longer I stare at it, the closer and farther away it seems to be. It could be night and there may be stars to stare at. Or I could be standing under a great tree, the leaves and branches above me move slightly and I start swaying with them.
I find this a fun exercise and I remind myself to do it often. It calms my nerves when I have anxiety. I just need to look up.

So I encourage you all to Look Up, you might enjoy it. 🙂

I hope you are all well and safe, sending loads of good vibes!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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New On My Shoes.

I just thought I would let you all know that I have updated My Shoes. I have left a few thoughts there if you would like to read and get some more understanding about my day to day life. It can be very emotional and triggering for those who are sensitive to terminal illness and loss.

I’m sending you all good vibes!

Until Next Time,

Namaste.

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There Is Peace

I am in a very weird state of mind at the moment and all I crave is peace. I don’t want to have to feel the stress and worry. I want to be able to breathe deep and actually feel calm. I dream of smiling and meaning it. One thing I need to remind myself of is that there is constantly peace surrounding me, I just need to find it.

I work hard, like so many humans out there… we work hard, we stress, we don’t make time for ourselves. Yes, our work differs and our lives are very different but I find stress doesn’t care who you are or what kind of life you live. If you are alive you will probably have some kind of stress.

Personally, my stress stems from my mother. The weight that constantly sits on my heart, the big question of when death might take her. That is my stress.
Today while I was hanging the washing I realized that there is peace all around me. The breeze is peaceful, the air I breathe. The trees swinging in the wind, the bee landing on the flower, the sun warming my skin, the birds singing… it is all peace. Nature at peace. natures peace is my peace too, if I accept it. I can breathe in peace everyday if I choose to see it that way.

The next time I am craving peace, I will breathe and be thankful for the peace within and around me. I invite you to do the same.

Until Next Time,

Namaste.

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The Feels!

I am feeling all the emotions at the moment. Life has been tough. This past week has been tough. I will allow myself to feel the emotions and I will not bully myself.

I just realized how long it has been since I posted and I thought I should probably say something, put something out there.
For those of you who don’t know this about me, I am a writer, I write novels (nothing published, that’s the dream) and I have started a couple new stories that I want to explore. I find that I express my feelings through writing in a completely different way than painting and I know that if I am having heavy art block, I need to turn to a new story to get my creativity flowing again. So that is what I will be doing from now on while I am going through the feels. I thought I would just update you all on this and I hope you are all staying safe and keeping as much of a light heart as possible.

I am constantly thinking of all of those people out there struggling and I send them love. If there’s one thing I could really do with right now, that would be a hug. So I’m sending all you beautiful humans a giant virtual hug!

I will try to at least post once a week during this time of all the emotions.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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The One Where I Accept the Invitation.

Anyone who knows me knows that I am a HUGE fan of Friends. I have been watching it for many many years. It has always been a big part of my life.
In the episode The One With The Jellyfish, Phoebe sings a song “Sixty-Six Colors Of My Bedroom” at the end of the song, she invites her listeners to count the colors in their room. Well, that’s what I did. I probably didn’t do it as accurately as Phoebe but I did it and I’m going to share it with you!

So I counted the colors roughly and I believe I have 80 colors. Yes, way more than Phoebe’s but I counted the colors of my books and all the random things in my room. It’s a bit like a rainbow threw up in there, even on a tidy day. I tried to get the best matches and I think I did good. I had a lot of fun with this and I invite you to do the same! Plus, look at all the pretty colors!! 🙂

As always I am sending you all good vibes!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Writing down your dreams

I tend to have vivid dreams, I always have and lately my dreams have been very weird. There are messages hidden in our dreams I have always believed that. I can hear my mothers voice now- “write them down, if you want to find out what they mean you have to write them down, with as much detail as possible. Then you need to analyze it. You need to figure out what every word and action that happened in the dream means to you. ” I never really understood her way of dissecting dreams and getting messages from them but it worked for her. She is such an amazing person.

I want to figure out what works for me with analyzing dreams. I want to find the right way for me. I want to start by writing down my dreams. I will keep a dream journal and in the morning as I wake up I will write down everything I remember that happened in my dream. What will be more challenging is if I wake up in the middle of the night from a disturbing dream, I want to write that down too. (I don’t know if that one will happen.)

This should be a fun exercise for me. I love dreaming, I love the world I go to when I sleep. Sometimes it is weird and scary but mostly it’s fun and peaceful. I just thought I would share this. I’ll probably do a post in the future about how it’s going or if I lost track and maybe stopped. (There’s nothing wrong with that.)

I hope this post finds you all well and healthy!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Books On My TBR Shelf

So I thought I would do something a bit different for this post. I am a huge bookworm. I love books. I love reading books, I love collecting books and I love smelling books. 🙂

So I wanted to start a list here for my 2020 TBR! I will update and edit this list as I finish or add books. I don’t know if this will be an entertaining read for you guys but I wanted to post this because it is part of who I am. I love my books and I love writing lists. So this is the best of both worlds for me.

  • Illuminae by Amie Kaufman & Jay Kristoff (currently reading! So good!)
  • Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell (I’m a huge Rainbow Rowell fan!)
  • Ferney by James Long
  • The Magic Misfits by Neil Patrick Harris

That’s it for now. I think I will add four at a time.

Are you guys reading anything interesting at the moment?

Sending you all good vibes!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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I definitely eat my emotions.

Do you guys do this? In times like these the stress levels are through the roof. I tend to turn to food. I snack. I can snack all day long and I do know that it isn’t exactly healthy but like I have said many times before, it is okay to process and go through these traumatic times in whichever way works for you.

So with that said, lets talk about some of my favorite snacks and maybe by the end of this fun post you’ll want to join me. 🙂

Chocolate!

Who doesn’t love chocolate? Well, I actually do know a couple of people who hate chocolate but lets ignore that. I love chocolate, as long as I have my chocolates and some good coffee I am a happy lady! I love all chocolate! I also happen to love the movie Chocolat. I usually eat chocolate while watching it. 🙂

Chips!

Or crisps, I love sitting down with a bag of chips. I need some salty treats too! My favorite flavors are Cheese, Lightly Salted, Salt and Vinegar, Tomato and Sour Cream and Chives. Do you guys like chips?

Cookies.

I love eating cookies, I hate making them. The problem is, I will finish a whole box of cookies by myself. There is something very comforting about a cookie. I love Choc Chip, Shortbread and Sugar Cookies.

Noodles!

Okay, I know instant noodles are definitely not healthy at all but it is pure comfort for me. It is something I used to eat often as a kid and it just takes me back to calmer, peaceful days.

So those are my favorite things to eat when I’m stressed and emotional. I’m sure I’m not alone in this. So go on and enjoy your snacks, don’t feel guilty. You do what you need to do for your mental health.

I hope you are all well and safe out there.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Time To Start Baking!

I think cake is important in a lockdown. I will be baking tomorrow. I have a few oranges that I want to use. I have a faithful lemon cake recipe that I always use, I change it constantly but I’ve settled on the recipe you will find below. I will be using oranges instead of lemons. I find this is an easy cake to change up when I want to. Sometimes I will add a syrup to the cake if I want it really moist. I have a really wonky oven so I bake it on 150, because my 150 is everyone else’s 180.

Lemon Cake.

Ingredients.

1 cup oil (I use sunflower)
2 cups sugar
4 eggs
1/3 cup lemon zest
3 cups flour
2 tsp baking powder
1 tsp baking soda
3/4 fresh lemon juice
3/4 buttermilk

For The Glaze

2 cups icing sugar
3 tablespoons lemon juice.

Method

Preheat oven to 180 degrees Celsius. Prepare and line two loaf tins.

Beat the oil and sugar, then add eggs one at a time. Add the zest.
In another bowl, add the flour, baking powder and baking soda.
In a jug or bowl, combine the lemon juice and the buttermilk.

Add the flour and wet mixture to the batter bit by bit. Try to end with the flour. Beat till it’s smooth.

Then divide the mixture between the two tins. Bake for 40 min – 50 min. (my oven is weird.) Turn out and allow to cool.

Glaze
Combine the icing sugar and lemon juice. Whisk until smooth. Drizzle over the cakes once they have cooled down.

Do you guys enjoy baking? My mom taught me to bake, it makes me feel so much closer to her.

I hope you guys are keeping safe.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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What’s Your Favorite Song?

As I have mentioned before, music is so good for the mental health! You know what else is good for it? Movement! Get the blood pumping a bit. Get those good endorphins. You’ll be amazed at how good and lighthearted it will make you feel.

One of my favorite ways to get some movement in is to have a dance party on my own. It has always been an activity I do on my own… lockdown or not. (I don’t dance in front of people.)

I put on some of my favorite music and just start moving. I let the beat take me away and before I know it, I have a huge smile on my face and I feel much better.

So I suggest you guys try it. Have a dance party and let yourself relax, who knows… you may find out you’re an incredible dancer, and if your not, who cares? No one’s watching. 🙂

I hope you are all well and had an awesome day!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Change Of Seasons

Where I am, Autumn has shown itself. I find this season poetic, sad and beautiful. For me, it is a time of letting go, allowing the natural way of things to progress. Death is natural and if we let it happen with an open heart it can be beautiful.
It is a time of celebration too, we have a few birthdays in Autumn and Winter. So even though things have become dormant, there is always life in the home.

It’s my mom’s birthday in May, I wonder what it will be like this year. I want it to be warm, warm in every way. I want our home to be filled with love and happiness, I want it to surround her. I welcome the cold winter because I know the warmth that will come with it. The warmth of love.

I enjoy making the house I live in into a home, it’s well lived in… full of history and memories. The people I love in frames on the walls, my art littered around. Bursts of colour in the kitchen. My mothers paintings. The crockery I grew up with, fruit and vegetables, bright and ready to be eaten on the island. Santa Clause is still above the oven because he makes me happy. Trees outside all the windows. It doesn’t matter where I look I will find a tree, or two or three. My mothers energy is the heart of this home. I made sure of that.

Yes, Autumn is here, winter is well on it’s way but it is warm in my heart and my home.
I welcome whatever change may come, I embrace the lessons needed to be learnt, I want to grow. I want to change. I want to be renewed. I will take this time, in these cold months to better myself. I will become stronger, more courageous and above all, more connected to myself and this beautiful earth.

Sending everyone loads of love and good vibes.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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My Paints Are Calling

I have no motivation to paint! I think a lot of people are suffering during this time. Almost all of my favorite YouTubers are talking about the lack of motivation. I have spoken to more than one person recently who has told me they are not motivated. I’m no different. I haven’t been motivated, the only thing I am able to focus on intently is cleaning and I suppose that makes sense. It’s easier to clean out the mind when your space is clean. I love having a clean and clear space. It brings me so much joy to see a sparkling kitchen, or a nicely packed linen closet.

I think it is time though. There comes a time when I have to force myself to be productive. To sit down and create something. To lay out all the colors on a page and watch the paint dry. I came across an idea once, where similar to a mind dump, you just paint whatever emotion comes up. It could be shapes or completely abstract or it could have more detail. What matters is that you are channeling your feelings into it. Whatever the surface feelings are, paint them. Put it all on a page. I think that’s a great way to get back into painting. It could also be very interesting to see what your emotions and feelings look like.
It probably won’t be very pretty but who cares? You’re doing it for yourself.

I’m going to start trying to motivate myself more by doing little exercises like this.

How are you guys doing? Are you having the same problem?

I hope you are all safe and healthy out there!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Music Is Good For The Soul

Don’t you love music? I love music.
Someone just sang me a song while playing piano and sent me the recording. It was so wonderful to hear him singing and it brought such a huge smile to my face. Music is such a wonderful connection. I love it when someone sings to me and I think it’s that vibration of energy that really speaks to me.

Why do we listen to music? How does music make us feel? Music is emotional and full of feeling. What was the writer feeling? How is the singer feeling? How do those notes and chords make us feel. Music is such a powerful tool. I feel like there is a song and a voice for every emotion and feeling.

You know, I watched a series not long ago, and there were these random scenes of music, where the actors would just stop and lip sync like a music video, the scene was choreographed and the songs chosen went along and in many ways built onto the story that was being told. Music has that power. It can sometimes speak so much louder than our own voices.

I am going to look at what I listen to on a day to day basis more carefully, let the songs tell me, give me extra clues to how I’m feeling. Maybe that’s silly but hey, we’re in lockdown people and it sounds fun to me. I think I will open a section in my personal journal on music, create a playlist at the end of the day full of music that will tell me the story of how my day went.

I know this is a really random post but what can I say? I was inspired! 🙂

I hope you have all had a glorious day!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Triggers

I don’t want to go into crazy detail here because I am not a professional and I won’t pretend that I am. I just talk about my thoughts and feelings. I give advice based on my results but it is entirely up to you to use it, what works for me may not work for you.

When it comes to triggers, I think it is important to identify what triggers you. If you know a certain song will trigger you into feeling a certain unpleasant way then you deserve to know how to handle that.
It might be uncomfortable to think about it but what I did, was force myself to look at my triggers and try to understand them. When we understand what something is, or how it makes us feel then we have more control over those feelings. We can rationalize the situation and realize that we don’t have to feel out of control or scared because in that moment we can sit ourselves down, take a deep breath and understand that we are safe and secure.
The trigger can’t hurt us unless we let it. Those thoughts cant hurt us unless we let them. Our reality is what we make it. Know that you are loved even if you can’t feel it, you are loved.

Start being more aware of yourself and your surroundings. Listen to your feelings and take note when certain things make you feel uncomfortable, anxious, angry… etc. Whatever it may be, try to analyze it. Why does it make yo feel that way? What does it make you think of? Where is the discomfort sitting in your body. When you have identified these things then its easier to handle. It makes it more tangible and controllable.

One of my Reiki healers gave me a wonderful exercise to practice and it really helped me. When I am triggered and I feel an unpleasant emotion, like yesterday I felt paranoia and fear. What she told me to do was, close your eyes and take a deep breath. Now feel that emotion, accept that you are feeling that emotion, don’t fight it. Acknowledge it. Then picture that feeling as a shape, see it in your body where you feel it has settled. (An example of this is, when I am paranoid I feel all that emotion sitting in the pit of my stomach, when I am anxious I feel it sitting in my throat.)
Then give that shape, that emotion a colour. Make it as tangible as possible. Take another deep breath and see it melting away. See it disappearing. See the area clean, and free from the discomfort.

Using this in conjunction with understanding my triggers has really helped me. A few years ago I would have been in a horrible way because of the trigger I went through yesterday but because I was given these tools and I used them, I felt immediately better. As soon as that paranoia was melted away out of the pit of my stomach I jumped into my affirmations. Repeating the good things, the good positive affirmations over and over until I felt my heart soar and a smile spread across my face.

Is there anything you guys do to help you through the triggers and the discomfort that follows?

I hope you are all well out there!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Something Positive.

So on a positive note. Today I managed something that surprised me!
I managed to do a forward fold. I touched my feet and it felt amazing. I haven’t been able to do anything besides Yin Yoga and even though it is very relaxed and non strenuous, many poses activate the feet and ankles. So most of my Yin practice has been tricky too. I haven’t been able to go into child’s pose for goodness sake!
I am so pleased to say that my ankles allowed a lot of movement and stretching today. Without any discomfort I managed a forward fold! I have been able to go into down dog the past couple of days with slight stiffness but touching my toes just felt so wonderful!

I think it is safe to say that eight weeks later, I am on my way to having normal movement in my ankles again. I am sure that I am a long way from full strength and I must still be very aware not to damage myself but I am celebrating all the small achievements!

What can you celebrate that happened today? We should strive to find all the good things that happened in our day. 🙂

As always I am sending you all good vibes and many blessings.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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I thought I Was Done

I had a bit of a strange moment today. I was triggered and paranoia hit me like a tonne of bricks and I haven’t experienced those feelings in a long time. Paranoia is such a strange feeling. What am I really scared of? I know I am safe and that as long as I believe it, I am protected. I am loved by so many and the universe will always provide me with what I ask for. That is why I am scared of fear itself because I understand how the law of attraction works and I am scared of dwelling on fear and the things I fear. This is where paranoia is different for me. I can handle fear and I know how to let it go, for myself. Everyone is different and what works for me may not work for you but over the years I have gotten to know myself and I know how to let go of my fears but I find paranoia doesn’t work the same way.
I don’t know if you guys have experienced the same thing? I find that when paranoia latches on, it’s incredibly hard to let go. My brain runs with it like a crazy person. Now I’m going to touch on my last post because the only thing that brings me any kind of peace when I am paranoid is affirmations. Affirmations just saved me a whole anxiety attack because my paranoia was so intense.

I am starting a new daily habit for myself and feel free to join me if you’d like. I am going to add a step to my time in the mornings when I do my mind dumps and I journal. I will write down a few affirmations for the day and I will read them out loud whenever I need them and just before I go to bed at night. I of course didn’t start in the morning because I just decided to do it but I will share today’s affirmations with you.

  1. I AM SAFE.
  2. ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD.
  3. I AM ABUNDANT.
  4. I AM LOVED.
  5. I AM HAPPY.
  6. I AM SECURE.
  7. I AM AT PEACE.
  8. ALL IS WELL.
  9. I AM INSPIRED.
  10. I AM CREATIVE.
  11. I AM BALANCED.
  12. I AM HEALTHY…….. and so it is.

It doesn’t matter how many you come up with, these are the ones that felt right for me in the moment. I will be doing this everyday and hopefully it will become a natural habit. I’m all for good mental health and I want to be done with paranoia forever. It’s a horrid feeling.

if any of my affirmations resonates with you go ahead and use it. Affirmations don’t have to be long they can be whatever you need in the moment. Do remember though that the words I AM are some of the most powerful words in the universe try to use them often in your affirmations.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day and may you all be blessed.

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Those Good Thoughts

I wanted to write about affirmations. I think positive self talk is very important. I believe it’s very common for us as human beings to bully ourselves, to be negative in general. It makes sense, especially with all the content we take in everyday. Life has lost it softness, we see a lot of the rough side of life therefore our thoughts have become rougher too. I don’t pretend to know what it was like 100 years ago but I do know how current content effects me. As an empath I do feel things very deeply and I do know I am not the only one, I have quite a few people in my circle who are empaths too. That is why I try to encourage people to use affirmations, it slowly trains the brain into thinking more positively. The more positive our thoughts, the better we feel, the more likely we will attain a peaceful life.

I find that affirmations can be very personal, like a fragrance or shoes. You need to try a few on, see how it feels, does it stick?
One affirmation that has stuck with me for the past ten or so years has been All Is Well In My World. (You can try it on if you’d like.)
When I was in a slump a few years ago and I was highly paranoid I used a rather simple affirmation and it helped me so much. I Am Safe, All Is Well In My World.

I like to make up my own affirmations but it can be nice to get some guidance. One of my favorite teachers is Louise Hay, (I highly recommend her book You Can Heal Your Life.) her affirmations are amazing! She writes out affirmations which can be used to heal certain issues you may have, like anxiety or headaches.

Affirmations are such a powerful tool to use, I do believe that positive self talk can change your life. Even if you just start by looking in the mirror everyday and saying “I feel wonderful.” Say it with feeling and even if you don’t believe it right now, I am sure after a while of doing this you will start to believe it and as a result you will feel wonderful! 🙂

I hope you are all keeping well out there! I am sending everyone good vibes!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Dalgona Coffee

I’m sure you have all heard of the Dalgona Coffee, it has gone viral. It is the coffee recipe to make during lockdown. I am not a TikTok user but most of my favorite youtubers are making this coffee. It is everywhere I look. So I wanted to find out if it is worth the hype.

At first I wasn’t impressed but I tried again and again, I tweaked the recipe to my taste and now I am addicted! I can’t get enough of this coffee!! It is so yummy. It’s like a coffee milkshake without the ice cream but the whipped coffee makes this drink so creamy you don’t miss the ice cream at all. Pretty amazing!

Now I can make this coffee when I’m really missing the coffee shops. You can make your own special coffee at home and boy is this coffee special!

So, if you were wondering if this coffee is worth it. Is it worth it taking that time to whip some coffee, just to put it on top of some really icy cold milk?
Yes!!! It is so worth it. It takes a few minutes but you won’t regret spending that time on your coffee once you have sat down to enjoy it!

Let me know what you think if you decide to try it!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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Put It All On Paper!

Do you guys do this? I find a mind dump very beneficial.

Yes, meditation and yoga creates a lot of space in the mind but those pesky thoughts and ideas that take up all the space just creeps back in. It is natural to think, we can’t not think but we can control what we think and with practice we can find a peace in our minds. Our minds don’t have to be our enemies, we have trained the mind to think in a certain way. We have years and years of training to work through. This will take a while and mind dumps can help.

What I like to do is find a blank notebook or journal, this book will become a home for my thoughts. I like to keep my mind dumps separate from my actual journal. I have a journal, a book for mind dumps and my daily “bullet journal”.
I will do a mind dump every morning, I wake up go through my morning routine and then settle in front of my journals. Armed with a cup of coffee I will go through my To-Do for the day, then I will do my mind dump. I open up to a clean page and I start writing, I try not to judge my writing. It doesn’t have to make sense. Write whatever comes to mind, whatever you need to get out. Write, write, write, write until you are empty, until you feel peaceful, until you can breathe with ease. As soon as I am done with my mind dump I close the book. I don’t read it. It has left my mind, I don’t want to put it back in. I then do my gratitude. I list all that I am grateful for in that moment. Then I am ready to start my day. All of this doesn’t take too long. I would say it takes me about 15 to 20 minutes every morning. It allows me space to enjoy my breakfast with my momma. I don’t like eating on a full mind. 🙂

If you decide to try this out, I hope you find it beneficial. If you already do it and find it helps, then I am glad! We need all the love and support we can get and who better to receive it from than yourself?

I hope you have all had a wonderful day today! I for one am enjoying the change of seasons!

Until next time,

Namaste.

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