You know that feeling when someone makes you feel as light as a feather. Makes you realize that there’s more to relationships, friendships, people and life. I treasure those feelings. In times as hard as these it’s important to hold onto the people that make your life extra special. The people that show up for you everyday, know that it’s okay to need space, respects different opinions and makes you feel safe…. hold on to those people.
I have been blessed with a few people like this but one in particular has been keeping me sane in these extremely hard times and I am so grateful. Tonight she brought the biggest smile to my face and my heart is actually feeling happy. I have no idea how long this will last but I’m going to enjoy it while it does. I was so taken by these good mushy feelings that I had to write about it.
So, if you ever feel this way… just sit in the good feelings, let them sink into your bones. Allow the good feelings, the fluttering, the love, the joy, the laughter… allow them to take over. Welcome them. There’s enough darkness in the world, you can afford to ponder on these good things for a little while.
I hope you are all well and safe out there. Sending loads of good vibes to everyone.
I have officially returned to my mat. My safe space.
I have been doing yoga everyday for a week now and I am very happy about it. I have missed being on the mat, I have given myself this week to get back into my practice. I step on my mat everyday, even if it’s just for ten minutes, even if all I do is stay in child’s pose, I am okay with that. I showed up for myself and I can’t help but feel a peace flourishing in my body and spirit. I am still hurting, mourning and I cry everyday but I know that while I am on my mat, it is a safe space to let all of those emotions out.
A few days ago, I decided to practice some Yin and I focused on my grief, on the heaviness in my heart and body. The power thoughts that guided me through the practice helped me break down. I didn’t realize how much I had been holding back and bottling for the past few weeks but a lot of it came out and that never would have happened if it wasn’t for my conscious decision to get back onto my mat and take my practice seriously again.
My body is becoming accustomed to the movements again, the flow is returning to my aching body and heart. I cry and feel all the pain while becoming stronger, inside and out. My mom always did yoga, she started when she was a very small child and she instilled the practice in me. We went to classes together, we meditated together and I know that she would want me to come back to myself. I am doing my best.
Yoga is a blessing in my life and I am so very thankful. I thought I would share this with you guys and I hope that you are all doing well, keeping safe and healthy.
Hi everyone, I have taken time to myself to mourn…. I thought it would be for the best, my Aunt passed away a month after my mom’s passing. So it’s been a time. At this point I feel like I need to try and get myself into a routine again, I will try to write more often, I will do my best to blog more and I have started a new project that I have been enjoying. I want to start working out again so it’s all rather…. good.
I have started counting my blessings again and doing my gratitude. I have beautiful friends and family. There are good things I have to start focusing on again. Life is super hard at the moment, besides what’s been happening in my own life. The state of the world is very worrying and my heart goes out to all of those who are suffering at the moment.
I just wanted to touch base with you guys, and say hello. I am alive and I am definitely going to start posting more regularly again. I do want to make some changes, add a few things and yeah, I have loads of ideas. I’m going to try and find my bliss and I want to keep you guys in the loop.
So, I’m going to leave this post here and I hope you are all staying healthy and safe. Don’t forget that you are amazing, loved and so special. YOU ARE ENOUGH!
So, here I am. If you didn’t know already my mother passed away two weeks ago. This has been an extremely challenging time. There have been endless tears, pain and relentless heartache. It was expected but the shock was unbelievable. I miss her more than I can say with words. That said, I just wanted to let you guys know that I am taking it one day at a time and I will be back to a more regular posting schedule.
I will hopefully stop crying for long enough to actually write a full post one day soon. So for now I will just wish you all a beautiful weekend. I hope you are all staying healthy and safe.
I know it’s been a long time but life fell apart. This had been the hardest week of my life and I wrote about it on My Shoes. So if you would like to have a read, please do. All I am going to say here is, please cherish your families, keep them close and love them with everything you’ve got. It hurts when you lose them.
I hope everyone has been keeping safe, it is super cold here so I’m trying to stay bundled up and warm. I am going to try and get into a normal routine again once life has settled down a bit. As always I am sending you all good vibes and love.
What are you grateful for today? As I have said so many times before. I think it is incredibly important to be grateful for what we have. For the good things in our lives, the things that make a difference. So I will share a few things on my list today. I woke up not feeling the best and life is not easy at the moment. My mom’s health is getting worse everyday. So here I am, I will list some of the things that I am grateful for today. I encourage you guys to make a list too. at least five things a day.
I am grateful for my body because it keeps me moving, it keeps everything working so that I can keep taking care of my family. I am grateful for my mother because moment I get to spend with her is a blessing. I am grateful for my family because they are there for me when I need them. I am grateful for the sun because sitting in the sun gives me energy and makes me feel so much better. I am grateful for my animals because they keep me smiling and positive. I am grateful for the food I eat everyday because it nourishes me and keeps me alive.
There’s a few from my list today. I hope you are all well and staying healthy. As always I am sending you love and light.
I find it amazing how we change. We are constantly changing which is amazing! That’s how it’s supposed to be! How sad would it be if we are just the same person for years and years until the day we die. I think as humans we need to change, we learn, we grow and I find that the most beautiful part of being human. Old parts of us die and new parts bloom. That doesn’t mean we lose the core part of who we are it just means we are improving ourselves, settling into ourselves.
One of the ways I have changed over this past year is I have been craving the daylight, the morning sun… it makes me happy. There is of course the charm of night but mostly I just like to sleep at night so that I can wake up to a new beautiful day. I have in many ways become more hopeful. Which is lovely. I have been finding more comfort in the ways I have changed. I have been pushing myself to learn and try new things. When we welcome change, there is so much more to learn. Ultimately I want to be the best version of myself. I am the only one who can create that for myself. You need to love you, you need to nurture yourself.
Finding Love For Yourself.
One other thing I want to mention here is loving yourself because it goes hand in hand with changing and growing. It is true…. How can someone else love you if you don’t love yourself? Louise Hay speaks of this often. I always encourage people to read her books, I have learnt so much from her. Anyway… If you don’t love yourself, you are always going to doubt the love others have for you. You will probably start fights or feel horrid about the relationship or friendship because you won’t believe their love. You need to love yourself first. That doubt will fester and break up your relationship or friendship. You won’t be fulfilled until you love yourself. Give yourself the respect and love that you are looking for from others. Your life will become so much brighter and you will be able to shine. No one will ever know you better than yourself. You know what you need.
I’m going to leave this here but I am as always sending you all so much love and light.
There are times when I am so dead on my feet. I want to give up and just sleep all day long. I know that I can’t do anything like that. I can’t just run away, I can’t stop living and ultimately I don’t want to but I’m sure you can all relate, there are times when life is just too much. When it hurts to breathe, to carry on, to keep smiling. There is no shame in that. Being human is hard. Living is hard but I try to remember the good things, the things that make me want to carry on, that make me smile, that keep me standing and moving. It is so important that we give ourselves the chance to believe in life again. 🙂
Life is so beautiful, it is magical and full of love and wonder. There is so much to appreciate and be thankful for. So the first thing I do when life is too much, when life is suffocating me… I make a cup of tea or coffee. I sit down with my delicious hot drink and allow myself a moment. I take a moment to breathe, to enjoy something simple and easy. Something comforting.
I want you all to know, that no matter what your life is like or what kind of hardships you have, your feelings matter and it’s okay to feel sad, or anxious, or however you’re feeling but remember to come back to yourself. Give yourself a big hug. Allow yourself a moment to feel better. Do something you enjoy. Find that time. Life wont fall apart and stop if you take a moment for you.
I have updated My Shoes. Please do go have a read if you’d like. If you don’t know already, My Shoes is a page I started, where I share my journey of supporting a loved one who has a terminal illness. No matter how far along your loved one’s illness has progressed I am sure there is something relatable in my posts over on My Shoes.
How have you guys been? I know it’s been a while. Life has been a bit difficult, I will post an update on My Shoes today too, my mother hasn’t been great. Therefore I have been away from my computer and I just haven’t been motivated to write but I’m trying to pull myself together now.
I have been getting nothing done. I guess that’s a lie but I feel like I’ve been getting nothing done. I have been making an effort to be outside. I sit in the sun everyday for a few minutes (get your Vitamin D!) I have been organizing all the clutter and I’ve been unpacking some boxes that were still sitting in the garage. That’s been pretty fun, since I’ve been especially nostalgic lately. I think one of my favorite things to do is decorate and make my house a home. There is nothing like a cozy home. Dogs running around, my childhood everywhere I look, familiar paintings and colors. My mom has always loved orange, and I must say, now that I have been unpacking all the warm colored decor, I feel so much better.
So what have you guys been doing? I hope you have all been staying healthy and safe. I know that this is just another season, it’s a time that will pass and we will all get through it. Times might be tough, but so are you! Whoever you are, where ever you are… I know you can find the strength and the courage to keep on living, to find your happiness and to be kind to yourself and others.
It’s good to stay clean and organized, an organized space helps to create an organized mind. So, today I have some free time and I think I will be spending it organizing. I have three rooms that need a complete turn around. I need to find spaces for everything and I want to deep clean the storage spaces in those rooms. One of the rooms is the library/ my studio, I need to move all the shelves and repack them. I have too many books and not enough shelves, so I need to get creative. Maybe I’ll post some pics of my finished shelves at some point. I just want to get it looking pretty first.
I have so many boxes to break down that have just been accumulating and accumulating over the past few months. It will open up so much floor space. Lets see how much I can get done today. I also need to vacuum… who here can relate? I love the smell of vacuuming… or is that just me?
So I look forward to more of an organized mind at the end of today, lets hope it all goes to plan.
I hope you guys are all having a beautiful productive day!
I don’t know about you and people usually think I’m crazy but I love winter! Here, the cold has arrived. We have said goodbye to our very long summer and the trees are losing their leaves. It is fresh and crisp, I wake up in the early mornings and take deep breathes, I smell the air outside… winter is in the air and it smells glorious.
Winter is a time of fluffy blankets, warm drinks and cuddles. I prefer winter clothes, the layers, the wool… Winter may be harsh and difficult but I am blessed to find comfort indoors, wrapped in blankets, cuddling with my dogs.
Winter inspires me to ask myself difficult questions, find ways that I may grow and improve, going into the new spring months. I use the cold months to get to know myself again. I allow myself extra time and slow movement. I find winter the best time to write. To sit in a corner all warm and protected, going on grand adventures with characters in my book.
Then there’s reading, who doesn’t love curling up with a good book? The cold air coming in through the window, hot coffee in your hand while you read.
You may not agree but you have to admit there is something charming and intriguing about winter, the circle of life, death and rebirth. There is much to learn from winter.
During this time we are all hermits, unless you have gone back to work. I have been home for goodness knows how long and the other day I spoiled myself and my mom to a meal from our favorite local coffee shop. The owner came out to deliver and we got to have a two minute chat outside my gate. Yes, we were both wearing masks and kept our distance but boy! It was strange talking to someone. Another human that doesn’t live in my house. Speaking to someone in the flesh is a whole other thing. I couldn’t believe my reaction, I was nervous and shaky! I have the known the woman for years! I had to giggle at myself.
I find it fascinating how our bodies and minds get used to being alone, away from other peoples energies. The minute I felt her energy I started shaking and I got tongue tied. It sure is going to be interesting when I can start leaving the house again. I’ll have to take it super slow or I’ll get really overwhelmed.
Do you guys have the same thing?
I hope you are all well and staying healthy. Sending out good vibes to everyone!
The birds chirping and singing to the morning sun.
Cuddles from your pets.
Stretching in the sun.
The feel of the earth beneath your bare feet.
Cool water quenching your thirst.
Listening to the trees singing in the wind.
A clean kitchen.
The smell of dinner cooking.
Looking at the stars shining bright at night.
I think it is very important to take note of all the small things that bring a smile to our faces, or make us feel peaceful. So I wrote down a few things that give me those good feelings. Once we become aware of the good things in our life, no matter how small, we invite more good. We deserve good things, things to make us happy and warm inside. Find those things. Write them down, become very aware of them while you experience them and be thankful!
I hope you are all keeping well and I wish you all a beautiful day!
I’m sure I have spoken about this before but it keeps popping up today. There is beauty everywhere. There is beauty in peace and in chaos.
I have been in slight chaos lately, it may not seem like chaos to others but if they had to live in it I’m sure they would be able to see the chaos too. Though, this morning I could see the beauty in the chaos. In my chaos. Once I could see it, see the worth in it, it started to feel better. It got less chaotic. Isn’t it amazing how just a change of interpretation can turn into a change of heart?What once was ugly, is now beautiful. What was hard, became easy. What was a chore became something I do with a smile on my face.
So I challenge you to see the beauty in your chaos, in your ugly, in your chores…. it will make a world of difference. it wont seem so harsh anymore. It will become better, easier and you will grow. We are here to see beauty, to experience the good things…. lets make more good things! Turn the bad into good.
So, yesterday I spoke of intuitive movement, today I would like to talk about intuitive painting. I find this a freeing activity. Once again, this is just for you, no ego is allowed in this activity. Still mind and intuitive movement.
What I do first is meditate, I will lay out my tools and paints in front of me. I will close my eyes and meditate, not for long, just a few minutes of deep breathing and calming of the mind. I allow my body to relax. I will then open my eyes and start painting. I will allow myself free movement with as little thought as possible. This is an activity of feeling not thinking. I use the colors that call out to me, I start painting. There isn’t a plan, just movement.
Whatever wants to come out, can then come out, in a healthy colorful way. Perhaps I will paint my tears or shapes representing how my tears make me feel. I may paint what happiness feels like, or love, loss, guilt…. there are no rules. What needs to happen on the page will happen. I find this is a good way of letting the overflowing emotions go. A way of moving away from the emotions to feel some peace. I lay it out on the page to better understand them, to accept them and then to let them go.
Besides it being a good way to make peace with yourself and your emotions, it’s also fun! Letting yourself run free with paint! It’s a wonderful feeling.
Do you guys have a special way that you like to let go of emotions?
As always I hope you are all well and safe, I am sending you all good vibes!
I think it is so important to keep movement going. Your body needs movement, it helps with mental health. The mind needs to stay still and the body needs to move. Let us find that sweet spot where the two meet. Start moving around while keeping your mind still, like a walking meditation. What I like to do is intuitive movement. I like to get out into the sun, so I will take my mat outside, (I am blessed with a beautiful garden.) I will find a good spot and I will stand there on my mat for a couple of minutes. I will find my silence. I will calm my mind and slowly, gently, in my own time…I will start to move. I will let the breeze guide me, or the birds song move me. Find what wills you to move and just, move. Don’t worry about how you look, remember the mind must be still, so no ego is allowed to barge into this special time. Do whatever comes natural to you, lift your arms, spin around, sway your hips… just move.
I often do the same with my yoga practice, I move intuitively. The positions I need will find me and I will melt into my mat. It doesn’t matter how long you do these practices for, it could be five minutes or an hour. That is up to you and what your body needs, obviously if your schedule doesn’t allow for an hour, at least try to give yourself five minutes everyday of intuitive movement with a still mind. I of course encourage you to try this outside, but I do understand that not all of us has outside space to escape to in these trying times, so perhaps do this close to a window where you can hear, see and feel the outside nature floating in around you.
Remember, no judgement. This is all part of self care.
I am, as always sending you all loads of love and good vibes.
I always find it so amazing how I feel when I look up. It doesn’t matter where I am, but when I look up I always seem to find something interesting to look at. Say I look up at a ceiling, perhaps the ceiling is cracked. I can create art out of the cracks. Or I could be outside, the sky above me, there could be clouds to create shapes and stories out of…. maybe the sky is a deep blue and the longer I stare at it, the closer and farther away it seems to be. It could be night and there may be stars to stare at. Or I could be standing under a great tree, the leaves and branches above me move slightly and I start swaying with them. I find this a fun exercise and I remind myself to do it often. It calms my nerves when I have anxiety. I just need to look up.
So I encourage you all to Look Up, you might enjoy it. 🙂
I hope you are all well and safe, sending loads of good vibes!
I just thought I would let you all know that I have updated My Shoes. I have left a few thoughts there if you would like to read and get some more understanding about my day to day life. It can be very emotional and triggering for those who are sensitive to terminal illness and loss.
I am in a very weird state of mind at the moment and all I crave is peace. I don’t want to have to feel the stress and worry. I want to be able to breathe deep and actually feel calm. I dream of smiling and meaning it. One thing I need to remind myself of is that there is constantly peace surrounding me, I just need to find it.
I work hard, like so many humans out there… we work hard, we stress, we don’t make time for ourselves. Yes, our work differs and our lives are very different but I find stress doesn’t care who you are or what kind of life you live. If you are alive you will probably have some kind of stress.
Personally, my stress stems from my mother. The weight that constantly sits on my heart, the big question of when death might take her. That is my stress. Today while I was hanging the washing I realized that there is peace all around me. The breeze is peaceful, the air I breathe. The trees swinging in the wind, the bee landing on the flower, the sun warming my skin, the birds singing… it is all peace. Nature at peace. natures peace is my peace too, if I accept it. I can breathe in peace everyday if I choose to see it that way.
The next time I am craving peace, I will breathe and be thankful for the peace within and around me. I invite you to do the same.
I am feeling all the emotions at the moment. Life has been tough. This past week has been tough. I will allow myself to feel the emotions and I will not bully myself.
I just realized how long it has been since I posted and I thought I should probably say something, put something out there. For those of you who don’t know this about me, I am a writer, I write novels (nothing published, that’s the dream) and I have started a couple new stories that I want to explore. I find that I express my feelings through writing in a completely different way than painting and I know that if I am having heavy art block, I need to turn to a new story to get my creativity flowing again. So that is what I will be doing from now on while I am going through the feels. I thought I would just update you all on this and I hope you are all staying safe and keeping as much of a light heart as possible.
I am constantly thinking of all of those people out there struggling and I send them love. If there’s one thing I could really do with right now, that would be a hug. So I’m sending all you beautiful humans a giant virtual hug!
I will try to at least post once a week during this time of all the emotions.
Anyone who knows me knows that I am a HUGE fan of Friends. I have been watching it for many many years. It has always been a big part of my life. In the episode The One With The Jellyfish, Phoebe sings a song “Sixty-Six Colors Of My Bedroom” at the end of the song, she invites her listeners to count the colors in their room. Well, that’s what I did. I probably didn’t do it as accurately as Phoebe but I did it and I’m going to share it with you!
So I counted the colors roughly and I believe I have 80 colors. Yes, way more than Phoebe’s but I counted the colors of my books and all the random things in my room. It’s a bit like a rainbow threw up in there, even on a tidy day. I tried to get the best matches and I think I did good. I had a lot of fun with this and I invite you to do the same! Plus, look at all the pretty colors!! 🙂
I tend to have vivid dreams, I always have and lately my dreams have been very weird. There are messages hidden in our dreams I have always believed that. I can hear my mothers voice now- “write them down, if you want to find out what they mean you have to write them down, with as much detail as possible. Then you need to analyze it. You need to figure out what every word and action that happened in the dream means to you. ” I never really understood her way of dissecting dreams and getting messages from them but it worked for her. She is such an amazing person.
I want to figure out what works for me with analyzing dreams. I want to find the right way for me. I want to start by writing down my dreams. I will keep a dream journal and in the morning as I wake up I will write down everything I remember that happened in my dream. What will be more challenging is if I wake up in the middle of the night from a disturbing dream, I want to write that down too. (I don’t know if that one will happen.)
This should be a fun exercise for me. I love dreaming, I love the world I go to when I sleep. Sometimes it is weird and scary but mostly it’s fun and peaceful. I just thought I would share this. I’ll probably do a post in the future about how it’s going or if I lost track and maybe stopped. (There’s nothing wrong with that.)
So I thought I would do something a bit different for this post. I am a huge bookworm. I love books. I love reading books, I love collecting books and I love smelling books. 🙂
So I wanted to start a list here for my 2020 TBR! I will update and edit this list as I finish or add books. I don’t know if this will be an entertaining read for you guys but I wanted to post this because it is part of who I am. I love my books and I love writing lists. So this is the best of both worlds for me.
Illuminae by Amie Kaufman & Jay Kristoff (currently reading! So good!)
Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell (I’m a huge Rainbow Rowell fan!)
Ferney by James Long
The Magic Misfits by Neil Patrick Harris
That’s it for now. I think I will add four at a time.
Are you guys reading anything interesting at the moment?
Do you guys do this? In times like these the stress levels are through the roof. I tend to turn to food. I snack. I can snack all day long and I do know that it isn’t exactly healthy but like I have said many times before, it is okay to process and go through these traumatic times in whichever way works for you.
So with that said, lets talk about some of my favorite snacks and maybe by the end of this fun post you’ll want to join me. 🙂
Who doesn’t love chocolate? Well, I actually do know a couple of people who hate chocolate but lets ignore that. I love chocolate, as long as I have my chocolates and some good coffee I am a happy lady! I love all chocolate! I also happen to love the movie Chocolat. I usually eat chocolate while watching it. 🙂
Or crisps, I love sitting down with a bag of chips. I need some salty treats too! My favorite flavors are Cheese, Lightly Salted, Salt and Vinegar, Tomato and Sour Cream and Chives. Do you guys like chips?
I love eating cookies, I hate making them. The problem is, I will finish a whole box of cookies by myself. There is something very comforting about a cookie. I love Choc Chip, Shortbread and Sugar Cookies.
Okay, I know instant noodles are definitely not healthy at all but it is pure comfort for me. It is something I used to eat often as a kid and it just takes me back to calmer, peaceful days.
So those are my favorite things to eat when I’m stressed and emotional. I’m sure I’m not alone in this. So go on and enjoy your snacks, don’t feel guilty. You do what you need to do for your mental health.
I think cake is important in a lockdown. I will be baking tomorrow. I have a few oranges that I want to use. I have a faithful lemon cake recipe that I always use, I change it constantly but I’ve settled on the recipe you will find below. I will be using oranges instead of lemons. I find this is an easy cake to change up when I want to. Sometimes I will add a syrup to the cake if I want it really moist. I have a really wonky oven so I bake it on 150, because my 150 is everyone else’s 180.
1 cup oil (I use sunflower) 2 cups sugar 4 eggs 1/3 cup lemon zest 3 cups flour 2 tsp baking powder 1 tsp baking soda 3/4 fresh lemon juice 3/4 buttermilk
For The Glaze
2 cups icing sugar 3 tablespoons lemon juice.
Preheat oven to 180 degrees Celsius. Prepare and line two loaf tins.
Beat the oil and sugar, then add eggs one at a time. Add the zest. In another bowl, add the flour, baking powder and baking soda. In a jug or bowl, combine the lemon juice and the buttermilk.
Add the flour and wet mixture to the batter bit by bit. Try to end with the flour. Beat till it’s smooth.
Then divide the mixture between the two tins. Bake for 40 min – 50 min. (my oven is weird.) Turn out and allow to cool.
Glaze Combine the icing sugar and lemon juice. Whisk until smooth. Drizzle over the cakes once they have cooled down.
Do you guys enjoy baking? My mom taught me to bake, it makes me feel so much closer to her.
As I have mentioned before, music is so good for the mental health! You know what else is good for it? Movement! Get the blood pumping a bit. Get those good endorphins. You’ll be amazed at how good and lighthearted it will make you feel.
One of my favorite ways to get some movement in is to have a dance party on my own. It has always been an activity I do on my own… lockdown or not. (I don’t dance in front of people.)
I put on some of my favorite music and just start moving. I let the beat take me away and before I know it, I have a huge smile on my face and I feel much better.
So I suggest you guys try it. Have a dance party and let yourself relax, who knows… you may find out you’re an incredible dancer, and if your not, who cares? No one’s watching. 🙂
Where I am, Autumn has shown itself. I find this season poetic, sad and beautiful. For me, it is a time of letting go, allowing the natural way of things to progress. Death is natural and if we let it happen with an open heart it can be beautiful. It is a time of celebration too, we have a few birthdays in Autumn and Winter. So even though things have become dormant, there is always life in the home.
It’s my mom’s birthday in May, I wonder what it will be like this year. I want it to be warm, warm in every way. I want our home to be filled with love and happiness, I want it to surround her. I welcome the cold winter because I know the warmth that will come with it. The warmth of love.
I enjoy making the house I live in into a home, it’s well lived in… full of history and memories. The people I love in frames on the walls, my art littered around. Bursts of colour in the kitchen. My mothers paintings. The crockery I grew up with, fruit and vegetables, bright and ready to be eaten on the island. Santa Clause is still above the oven because he makes me happy. Trees outside all the windows. It doesn’t matter where I look I will find a tree, or two or three. My mothers energy is the heart of this home. I made sure of that.
Yes, Autumn is here, winter is well on it’s way but it is warm in my heart and my home. I welcome whatever change may come, I embrace the lessons needed to be learnt, I want to grow. I want to change. I want to be renewed. I will take this time, in these cold months to better myself. I will become stronger, more courageous and above all, more connected to myself and this beautiful earth.
I have no motivation to paint! I think a lot of people are suffering during this time. Almost all of my favorite YouTubers are talking about the lack of motivation. I have spoken to more than one person recently who has told me they are not motivated. I’m no different. I haven’t been motivated, the only thing I am able to focus on intently is cleaning and I suppose that makes sense. It’s easier to clean out the mind when your space is clean. I love having a clean and clear space. It brings me so much joy to see a sparkling kitchen, or a nicely packed linen closet.
I think it is time though. There comes a time when I have to force myself to be productive. To sit down and create something. To lay out all the colors on a page and watch the paint dry. I came across an idea once, where similar to a mind dump, you just paint whatever emotion comes up. It could be shapes or completely abstract or it could have more detail. What matters is that you are channeling your feelings into it. Whatever the surface feelings are, paint them. Put it all on a page. I think that’s a great way to get back into painting. It could also be very interesting to see what your emotions and feelings look like. It probably won’t be very pretty but who cares? You’re doing it for yourself.
I’m going to start trying to motivate myself more by doing little exercises like this.
How are you guys doing? Are you having the same problem?
Don’t you love music? I love music. Someone just sang me a song while playing piano and sent me the recording. It was so wonderful to hear him singing and it brought such a huge smile to my face. Music is such a wonderful connection. I love it when someone sings to me and I think it’s that vibration of energy that really speaks to me.
Why do we listen to music? How does music make us feel? Music is emotional and full of feeling. What was the writer feeling? How is the singer feeling? How do those notes and chords make us feel. Music is such a powerful tool. I feel like there is a song and a voice for every emotion and feeling.
You know, I watched a series not long ago, and there were these random scenes of music, where the actors would just stop and lip sync like a music video, the scene was choreographed and the songs chosen went along and in many ways built onto the story that was being told. Music has that power. It can sometimes speak so much louder than our own voices.
I am going to look at what I listen to on a day to day basis more carefully, let the songs tell me, give me extra clues to how I’m feeling. Maybe that’s silly but hey, we’re in lockdown people and it sounds fun to me. I think I will open a section in my personal journal on music, create a playlist at the end of the day full of music that will tell me the story of how my day went.
I know this is a really random post but what can I say? I was inspired! 🙂
I don’t want to go into crazy detail here because I am not a professional and I won’t pretend that I am. I just talk about my thoughts and feelings. I give advice based on my results but it is entirely up to you to use it, what works for me may not work for you.
When it comes to triggers, I think it is important to identify what triggers you. If you know a certain song will trigger you into feeling a certain unpleasant way then you deserve to know how to handle that. It might be uncomfortable to think about it but what I did, was force myself to look at my triggers and try to understand them. When we understand what something is, or how it makes us feel then we have more control over those feelings. We can rationalize the situation and realize that we don’t have to feel out of control or scared because in that moment we can sit ourselves down, take a deep breath and understand that we are safe and secure. The trigger can’t hurt us unless we let it. Those thoughts cant hurt us unless we let them. Our reality is what we make it. Know that you are loved even if you can’t feel it, you are loved.
Start being more aware of yourself and your surroundings. Listen to your feelings and take note when certain things make you feel uncomfortable, anxious, angry… etc. Whatever it may be, try to analyze it. Why does it make yo feel that way? What does it make you think of? Where is the discomfort sitting in your body. When you have identified these things then its easier to handle. It makes it more tangible and controllable.
One of my Reiki healers gave me a wonderful exercise to practice and it really helped me. When I am triggered and I feel an unpleasant emotion, like yesterday I felt paranoia and fear. What she told me to do was, close your eyes and take a deep breath. Now feel that emotion, accept that you are feeling that emotion, don’t fight it. Acknowledge it. Then picture that feeling as a shape, see it in your body where you feel it has settled. (An example of this is, when I am paranoid I feel all that emotion sitting in the pit of my stomach, when I am anxious I feel it sitting in my throat.) Then give that shape, that emotion a colour. Make it as tangible as possible. Take another deep breath and see it melting away. See it disappearing. See the area clean, and free from the discomfort.
Using this in conjunction with understanding my triggers has really helped me. A few years ago I would have been in a horrible way because of the trigger I went through yesterday but because I was given these tools and I used them, I felt immediately better. As soon as that paranoia was melted away out of the pit of my stomach I jumped into my affirmations. Repeating the good things, the good positive affirmations over and over until I felt my heart soar and a smile spread across my face.
Is there anything you guys do to help you through the triggers and the discomfort that follows?
So on a positive note. Today I managed something that surprised me! I managed to do a forward fold. I touched my feet and it felt amazing. I haven’t been able to do anything besides Yin Yoga and even though it is very relaxed and non strenuous, many poses activate the feet and ankles. So most of my Yin practice has been tricky too. I haven’t been able to go into child’s pose for goodness sake! I am so pleased to say that my ankles allowed a lot of movement and stretching today. Without any discomfort I managed a forward fold! I have been able to go into down dog the past couple of days with slight stiffness but touching my toes just felt so wonderful!
I think it is safe to say that eight weeks later, I am on my way to having normal movement in my ankles again. I am sure that I am a long way from full strength and I must still be very aware not to damage myself but I am celebrating all the small achievements!
What can you celebrate that happened today? We should strive to find all the good things that happened in our day. 🙂
As always I am sending you all good vibes and many blessings.
I had a bit of a strange moment today. I was triggered and paranoia hit me like a tonne of bricks and I haven’t experienced those feelings in a long time. Paranoia is such a strange feeling. What am I really scared of? I know I am safe and that as long as I believe it, I am protected. I am loved by so many and the universe will always provide me with what I ask for. That is why I am scared of fear itself because I understand how the law of attraction works and I am scared of dwelling on fear and the things I fear. This is where paranoia is different for me. I can handle fear and I know how to let it go, for myself. Everyone is different and what works for me may not work for you but over the years I have gotten to know myself and I know how to let go of my fears but I find paranoia doesn’t work the same way. I don’t know if you guys have experienced the same thing? I find that when paranoia latches on, it’s incredibly hard to let go. My brain runs with it like a crazy person. Now I’m going to touch on my last post because the only thing that brings me any kind of peace when I am paranoid is affirmations. Affirmations just saved me a whole anxiety attack because my paranoia was so intense.
I am starting a new daily habit for myself and feel free to join me if you’d like. I am going to add a step to my time in the mornings when I do my mind dumps and I journal. I will write down a few affirmations for the day and I will read them out loud whenever I need them and just before I go to bed at night. I of course didn’t start in the morning because I just decided to do it but I will share today’s affirmations with you.
I AM SAFE.
ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD.
I AM ABUNDANT.
I AM LOVED.
I AM HAPPY.
I AM SECURE.
I AM AT PEACE.
ALL IS WELL.
I AM INSPIRED.
I AM CREATIVE.
I AM BALANCED.
I AM HEALTHY…….. and so it is.
It doesn’t matter how many you come up with, these are the ones that felt right for me in the moment. I will be doing this everyday and hopefully it will become a natural habit. I’m all for good mental health and I want to be done with paranoia forever. It’s a horrid feeling.
if any of my affirmations resonates with you go ahead and use it. Affirmations don’t have to be long they can be whatever you need in the moment. Do remember though that the words I AM are some of the most powerful words in the universe try to use them often in your affirmations.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful day and may you all be blessed.
I wanted to write about affirmations. I think positive self talk is very important. I believe it’s very common for us as human beings to bully ourselves, to be negative in general. It makes sense, especially with all the content we take in everyday. Life has lost it softness, we see a lot of the rough side of life therefore our thoughts have become rougher too. I don’t pretend to know what it was like 100 years ago but I do know how current content effects me. As an empath I do feel things very deeply and I do know I am not the only one, I have quite a few people in my circle who are empaths too. That is why I try to encourage people to use affirmations, it slowly trains the brain into thinking more positively. The more positive our thoughts, the better we feel, the more likely we will attain a peaceful life.
I find that affirmations can be very personal, like a fragrance or shoes. You need to try a few on, see how it feels, does it stick? One affirmation that has stuck with me for the past ten or so years has been All Is Well In My World. (You can try it on if you’d like.) When I was in a slump a few years ago and I was highly paranoid I used a rather simple affirmation and it helped me so much. I Am Safe, All Is Well In My World.
I like to make up my own affirmations but it can be nice to get some guidance. One of my favorite teachers is Louise Hay, (I highly recommend her book You Can Heal Your Life.) her affirmations are amazing! She writes out affirmations which can be used to heal certain issues you may have, like anxiety or headaches.
Affirmations are such a powerful tool to use, I do believe that positive self talk can change your life. Even if you just start by looking in the mirror everyday and saying “I feel wonderful.” Say it with feeling and even if you don’t believe it right now, I am sure after a while of doing this you will start to believe it and as a result you will feel wonderful! 🙂
I hope you are all keeping well out there! I am sending everyone good vibes!
I’m sure you have all heard of the Dalgona Coffee, it has gone viral. It is the coffee recipe to make during lockdown. I am not a TikTok user but most of my favorite youtubers are making this coffee. It is everywhere I look. So I wanted to find out if it is worth the hype.
At first I wasn’t impressed but I tried again and again, I tweaked the recipe to my taste and now I am addicted! I can’t get enough of this coffee!! It is so yummy. It’s like a coffee milkshake without the ice cream but the whipped coffee makes this drink so creamy you don’t miss the ice cream at all. Pretty amazing!
Now I can make this coffee when I’m really missing the coffee shops. You can make your own special coffee at home and boy is this coffee special!
So, if you were wondering if this coffee is worth it. Is it worth it taking that time to whip some coffee, just to put it on top of some really icy cold milk? Yes!!! It is so worth it. It takes a few minutes but you won’t regret spending that time on your coffee once you have sat down to enjoy it!
Let me know what you think if you decide to try it!
Do you guys do this? I find a mind dump very beneficial.
Yes, meditation and yoga creates a lot of space in the mind but those pesky thoughts and ideas that take up all the space just creeps back in. It is natural to think, we can’t not think but we can control what we think and with practice we can find a peace in our minds. Our minds don’t have to be our enemies, we have trained the mind to think in a certain way. We have years and years of training to work through. This will take a while and mind dumps can help.
What I like to do is find a blank notebook or journal, this book will become a home for my thoughts. I like to keep my mind dumps separate from my actual journal. I have a journal, a book for mind dumps and my daily “bullet journal”. I will do a mind dump every morning, I wake up go through my morning routine and then settle in front of my journals. Armed with a cup of coffee I will go through my To-Do for the day, then I will do my mind dump. I open up to a clean page and I start writing, I try not to judge my writing. It doesn’t have to make sense. Write whatever comes to mind, whatever you need to get out. Write, write, write, write until you are empty, until you feel peaceful, until you can breathe with ease. As soon as I am done with my mind dump I close the book. I don’t read it. It has left my mind, I don’t want to put it back in. I then do my gratitude. I list all that I am grateful for in that moment. Then I am ready to start my day. All of this doesn’t take too long. I would say it takes me about 15 to 20 minutes every morning. It allows me space to enjoy my breakfast with my momma. I don’t like eating on a full mind. 🙂
If you decide to try this out, I hope you find it beneficial. If you already do it and find it helps, then I am glad! We need all the love and support we can get and who better to receive it from than yourself?
I hope you have all had a wonderful day today! I for one am enjoying the change of seasons!
I am so excited, my yoga teacher, (the best teacher/friend in the world and I really miss her right now!) she has sent us our yoga classes! Yay! It’s so wonderful to hear her soothing voice during practice. I have been in a slump the past couple of weeks understandably, as I’m sure the rest of the world has been.
Besides the isolation and lockdown my mother has been getting more and more sick and I have been slacking in my practice. I find I am just too tired by the time I get to my mat and I have no motivation to practice. Receiving my classes has been the best thing to happen regarding my practice. I feel happy to get on my mat and take that hour and a half to myself, to be in silence with myself. To close my eyes and meditate. I know I am always saying how important it is to breathe and sit in silence but I admit, I fell down for a few days but I think I am back now. I will be practicing everyday, going back to my mat and coming back to myself.
Yoga has a beautiful way of keeping my negativity at bay, it allows me a huge amount of space to be calm and peaceful. I am so grateful for it. I still can’t do much with my feet, I can’t do anything strenuous so I will be focusing on Yin Yoga for now and perhaps some core and arm movements that won’t put pressure on my feet. No Sun Salutations for me… not yet at least, it has been eight weeks but I think I got on my feet too soon and it’s taking longer than usual to heal completely. I will just be gentle with myself.
I will be thinking of the world and I will be dedicating a few of my meditations to the people out there suffering.
I hope you guys are having a great day and I’m sending you all loads of love.
Choices, I always struggle with the choices I have made in my life. I think too much. Ultimately I need to make peace with the fact that everything happens for a reason. I don’t need to beat myself up for certain choices that I have made. I am human, I make mistakes and yes I do suffer with intense guilt. I’m working on that.
My point is, maybe you guys have made decisions that you regret or feel guilty about, maybe a choice you made hurt someone else or it hurt you… it’s okay, you don’t need to bully yourself. We are all human and if people want to judge you for your actions, if they feel the need to attack you, or speak their mind about your actions, that’s also okay. It’s their way of dealing, you don’t need to listen, you don’t have to defend yourself, just stay calm and be gentle with them and yourself. Please don’t take those judgments to heart. Ultimately what happened, happened for a reason.
I once worked through a teaching on forgiveness. Forgiveness in general. One of the points that stuck with me is, if you feel the need to apologize to someone and you can’t speak to them for any reason- maybe they don’t want to hear from you, maybe you lost their contact or maybe you’re just scared to reach out… you can still apologize. Sit in silence, hold their face in your mind and apologize. Keep up with this practice, apologize whenever you feel the need to, send them blessings and happiness, eventually that wound does heal. This worked for me, I have used this practice to make peace with a number of people including myself and even though they don’t hear your apology, that energy still flows to them. You attract what you put out into the universe, I would rather be sending blessings and love to the people I may have wronged instead of fretting over the situation… the more negative energy I pour into the wound the worse it will get, it might never heal… who knows it might attract another situation which might give me even more grief!
There are lessons we need to learn scattered throughout our lives and we need to consciously acknowledge that. Yes, I am human. Yes, I have made many many mistakes and yes, I have hurt people’s feelings… I need to learn from those mistakes, I need to learn my lessons and I will take on those lessons with love in my heart. I will continue to send love to those who have wronged me and to those whom I have wronged. I will learn my lessons and I will grow so that hopefully I never make the same mistakes and hopefully I won’t create another pattern.
Be gentle with yourself and others, love yourself and others, honor yourself and others. Life can be ugly, let’s sprinkle some goodness and beauty over all the ugly situations.
Just thought I would share some intense thoughts and feelings with you guys. My opinions might differ from yours and that’s perfectly fine, I hope if you take at least one thing from this post its to just love… love with your whole being.
I’m sending everyone in the world loads of blessings and I hope life is treating you all well!
Do you ever feel the need to escape to a place you have never been to before? I’m sure you have.
I have the need to make my way into a forest in a country I have never been to or sit on the foothills of a great mountain. I want to feel the snow, I want to see cherry blossoms. I just want to be surrounded by the quiet of nature. I catch myself having these feelings and then remember that I do have beautiful nature surrounding me. If I go and sit under the willow tree and close my eyes, I can listen to the tree singing to me. I don’t have to escape my reality because the trees in my garden can ground me. The flowers under my window smiles at me. The grass under my feet support me.
So my question to myself is… Why do I have the need to escape? Why do I want to remove myself from the place I am safe and loved. Why am I seeking solitude? I can go outside and be by myself. I can immerse myself in the tangible nature around me.
These are the questions I ponder when I am alone with my thoughts and feelings. Being human is so complex and yet simple.
All nature and living things are connected. I can greet a mountain I have never been to before by going to the mountain range that’s about an hour away. I can make contact with the soil in a forest which is in a different country just by touching the soil in my back yard. Why can’t this connection be good enough for me? We are constantly surround by nature and beauty even if it’s just the sunlight pouring down on us. It is after all the same sun that gives light to the rest of the world.
I don’t have to runaway to find beauty and peace. I just need to look. Sometimes I forget, sometimes I become overwhelmed and forget how wonderfully connected everything is. When I find myself forgetting or losing my way, I think of one of my favorite teachers, Thich Nhat Hanh. (I really want to visit Plum Village one day.) He teaches how we are all connected, if I smile at a flower and I think of him, I have the intent of smiling at him then I am actually, smiling at him. I hope that made sense. I can’t remember his actual words but that lesson made such an impact on me. We are all one, the trees, the soil, the flowers, the animals and the people.
In essence what I’m trying to say is, there is a whole world in one flower. Smile, greet it and you will be smiling at the world. 🙂
With everything that is going on in the world currently, I find that getting lost in a really good book can be rather beneficial for one’s mental health. I already am an introvert and I spend my life indoors but there is this weird thing that seems to happen in the brain when someone tells you, you can’t do something, that it’s against the rules. By golly, I want to do that! For the first time in ages, I want to leave the house because I am being told that I cant. Like when you were a kid and your mom told you not to touch something, that you can’t touch that thing… all you want to do is touch it. Though, when you did touch the thing you weren’t supposed to, you probably got into trouble with your mom. Was it worth it?
You know, there’s a great way to escape and leave your current reality for a bit without putting anyone in danger. Read a book! I have my TBR all ready to go and I have been reading like a crazy person. I have always been a bookworm and a major geek but in this time of uncertainty there is nothing like returning to a world you love. It’s like a hug, a safe place to get lost. Not to mention how wonderful it feels to hold a whole world in your hands, plus… books smell amazing. 🙂
So, what are you guys doing in this time of isolation? How are you escaping while staying safe?
I think in this time we all need to learn how to breathe again.
We are usually rushing everywhere, we never stop… we never give ourselves time to breathe. I think coming back to the breath is very important.
Now we have more than enough time. I don’t think we need to pressurize ourselves in this time, we don’t have to learn a new language or start a new business (unless you want to), if you are suffering from anxiety, depression or paranoia… hell, if you just feel under the weather and sad, please be kind to yourself. If you can’t handle the pressure then that’s okay. We don’t have to spread ourselves thin, but I do think we need to learn how to breathe again.
In times like these I think we should turn to healing. Healing for ourselves and all the people who need it around the globe. Mediating on an intention of healing for yourself, or the world or both, can make such a huge difference. It may not feel like it at first but everything does have a frequency and now more than ever, I feel like we can see how we are truly connected to one another.
So, this is what I like to do – I sit in my favorite spot, on my mat in my room facing the window. If it’s a nice sunny day I will sit outside under our big willow tree. I like to have my face towards the light. Then I will close my eyes. Depending on the healing intent, I will either put my hands over my heart, on my stomach or simply on my knees, palms facing up. I usually suggest that you just do what comes naturally, that is often the right thing to do. Then I start to focus on my breath. I won’t do any intense exercises. This practice is me becoming acquainted with my breath again. I follow my breath in and out, often times a smile will settle on my face. I can feel the energy lift around me and warmth surrounds me.
This is a simple practice, it is a good place to start if you want to get to know yourself again. I mean, what would you be without your breath?
Hello people! Yes, I’m still around. Things have been kind of difficult here as it has been all around the world.
Let me just say that my heart really does go out to all the people who are suffering or struggling in any way. If your mental health is suffering, if you have money issues, if you or your loved ones are high risk… whatever it may be, I am sending you loads of love and good vibes.
My mother is very ill as you may know already, if you have wondered over to My Shoes then you definitely know. I have just been spending this time trying to protect her from the virus. Then our internet has been on the blink, plus general lack of inspiration has kept me from updating. There have been many tears and a lot of heartache. We are in lock down here in my country, one week into lock down but I haven’t left the house in about seven weeks now. I sprained both my ankles recently, so I couldn’t leave my bed, let alone my house. Luckily I am back on my feet now but the minute I could start walking a bit, I wasn’t allowed to leave the house. Oh well, the universe works in mysterious ways.
This is a trying time but intend to make the best of it and focus on my passions. I will smile as much as possible but I will also allow myself to cry when I need to.
The energies are strange and times like these are not good for our mental health. Please remember to be gentle with yourself. What ever you are feeling, feel it. Be safe, stay indoors and keep loving yourself. Send love to those who need it and if you can help those in need then do. I don’t know what it’s like in your country but I know in my country there are a lot of elderly people in need. If the laws in your country allow, then put on your gloves and mask, go and buy them some milk and bread if you are able. If not, then I suggest sitting in silence, think of those in need and send them healing, loving thoughts and energy, pray for them, even doing something small like this could make a difference.
I’m going to try and write a lot during this time. I’m busy with the next post right now too.
Again, I hope you are all safe and healthy. I’m sending loads of good energy to you all!
Something I have been doing for years is making sure I talk to my plants and the nature around me. Nature is alive and has energy that you can connect with.
I like to walk around my garden, I make sure I touch every plant and I speak in calm tones to them.
I hug trees and I put my feet in the earth. I connect with the earth and I feel it calm me. I feel it all connect. I believe in being respectful to everything, why shouldn’t we respect and love the plants that give us oxygen, love the planet that keeps us fed and alive. Smile to the sun and say thank you to the moon. It is all connected and we are connected to it all.
I would like to remind you all to say hello to the flowers, and hug a few trees. I challenge you to take off your shoes and wriggle your toes in the earth. Feel how cool it is. Become grounded in it, touch the earth, smell it… This planet is our home, become aware of the planet. Become highly aware of the ground you walk on, know that the planet feels every step.
So, talk to the flowers and have a beautiful weekend.
I keep waiting for the day I can get up and do whatever I want in the day. I will walk and skip and garden. I will do yoga and I will stand painting out in the sun.
My list of things that need to be done when I can walk properly keeps growing. 🙂 and I cant wait!
I have a big commission coming up next month, a rather large abstract piece! Looking so forward to it. I know I will be better by then. I also have a cake order next month, so things are looking busy. Which is great! For now I will keep daydreaming about walking around normally.
I have updated my page My Shoes, please do go have a look and feel free to comment!
I spoke about some of my experiences and put some of my feelings into words. My mom is still with us and I am so grateful.
I hope you are all doing well and I will post soon!
I think the not being able to walk is getting to me. I have so much respect for people who don’t have legs or have lost the use of their legs.
Our bodies work so hard for us, and when we are missing a part of our body it really screws things up. I suppose it is made worse because I am the person who takes care of everyone. I take care of my family and I have zero support so me being out of action is kind of hell. I have stayed off my feet for two full weeks and it has come to the point where I have no choice, I have to start putting pressure on them. I am still being really careful and I don’t attempt stairs or moving fast. The pain is still there and they are still pretty swollen but I am managing.
I suppose when you don’t have a choice there’s nothing else to be done. I hate complaining in general but this is getting hard. I know it was a lesson I had to learn. I need to slow down and think about me but I hope next time I need to learn a lesson it wont be this painful.
Anyway, how are you guys doing? I hope everyone had a fantastic weekend!
I have a problem, I want to run but I can’t even walk. I’m still stuck in my mom’s wheelchair, moving around as best as I can. I spoke to my yoga teacher yesterday. Hopefully I will be able to go back to class next week. I’m being optimistic that I will be able to start walking again soon. I can stand for a bit but then I need to sit again. My feet feel dumb…. and sore. I still can’t believe I managed to do this to myself. My mind is boggled by it.
My dogs are so confused as to why I can’t go out and play with them. It’s a sad time in this house.
I started on the My Shoes page and I am working on the content. I will hopefully post the first part of the story tomorrow. I’ve been doing a lot of writing at the moment. So at least I am still being creative. I’ve been posting on Wattpad everyday.
Hi Everybody! I want to talk about something a bit difficult on here….my life and I hope that’s okay.
It will have it’s own home here, I will post it under My Shoes.
Just to give a bit of an introduction… Life in my shoes has not been very fun. It’s hard, it’s icky and difficult to swallow but it does have its moments, moments where I can smile and laugh. It’s ugly but it’s also beautiful, it’s sad but blessed. It constantly keeps me guessing and pondering the difficult questions. It makes me face my mortality.
Death is just another adventure, a road we all must walk. How will we greet death when the time comes?
I hope whoever ventures over to My Shoes will be able to take something from my experience and remember you can always share your experience with me if you want to. I will always listen.
On Sunday last weekend, I sprained both of my ankles. Yep, you read that right. I sprained both of my ankles. The pain was unbelievable. I spent most of the week crying and laying in bed. Being off my feet for so long has proven to be very difficult. With having so many responsibilities and a household to run, being off my feet has been extremely stressful.
I suppose I am having to learn how to trust other people to do the things I do, no matter how it’s being done. That is very hard. I am a bit of a control freak. When you have been doing things on your own, in your own way it’s difficult to allow other people to help. Especially when the said person you have to rely on makes you feel like they don’t really want to help.
As I am writing this it has been a week. 7 days since the fall. I am so over it. I just want to stand and walk but I cant. I don’t want to hurt myself more.
Anyway, I wanted to write this because I can’t believe how I have taken my feet and my ankles for granted. I just want to remind you all to be thankful for your bodies. Every part of your body takes such great care of you, keeps you walking, keeps you functioning. Be thankful, join me and be in the moment, be grateful for your body. It is a blessing.
What Meditation does for me, meditation is so important and such huge part of my life. To give a little background on me; I used to be a pretty strict Buddhist, I practiced Zen Buddhism. My life had so much peace but then my mom got really sick and I relied on some bad influences. It happens to the best of us. We are human and life is hard.
So yes, meditation was a staple for me and I have just recently gotten back to my health and well being. I can’t stress enough how important getting back to meditation has been. I have healed so much already. Meditation allows me to find silence in the noise, find peace in the chaos and smile to myself and all the difficulties. I smile and greet everything with kindness. Meditation has brought so much back into my life. I am so thankful.
What does meditation mean to me? EVERYTHING.
How do you guys feel about meditation? What does it do for you?