I can’t believe July is here. It feels like this year has just flown by! June was a tough month full of struggles and lessons to be learned. I am hoping that July will be gentler. July is also another writing heavy month since it’s Camp NaNoWrimo! I am already behind, but luckily my goal is only 30,000 words for this month which is doable. I’m hoping by the end of this month my manuscript will be ready for proof readers!
It’s also strange knowing that my birthday is creeping closer and closer. My second birthday without my beautiful momma. I feel like big things are coming and I’m not prepared at all. With all of these feelings and emotions floating around my brain I find myself distracted and motivation is at an all time low, but I will push on and try to make July a brilliant month!
Goals for July
Finish the novel
Read three books
Ground myself outside everyday
30 min of yoga everyday
I would say those are the big goals for this month. I can feel something coming and I need to be strong and grounded for the change on it’s way.
So, I’m not having the best day… I’m feeling under the weather, I had way too much dairy yesterday so my nose hates me, I have eczema around my eyebrows and that pesky brain fog is still with me. My body is obviously telling me to slow down, all I want to do is eat my emotions and I’m manifesting all the wrong things. Sometimes we lose our footing, trip over reality and then freak out.
Today is going to be a day of doing the things that bring me joy. I need to find those good feelings and drench myself in them. Shall I tell you about some of my favorite things to do on a bad day?
Firstly, I make sure to have a nice cup of coffee in the morning, especially on the bad days. I know I’m not technically allowed to have coffee anymore but we all deserve a good cheat day every now and then. (Sometimes it’s more than one day a week. Oops.) Then, I have something to eat… usually breakfast is my biggest meal of the day. (Food is important!) I’m a person who finds comfort in background noise. So I always have movies or series on in the background. Especially my comfort shows. Today is The Vampire Diaries. I’ve lost count how many times I’ve watched all the seasons.
The big thing for me is not to get stuck on social media, when I’m having a bad day I need to force myself to be off my phone as much as possible. A good way to do that is by catching up on some writing! Writing sprints are the way to go for me, I usually sprint for 25 to 30 minutes and take 5 to 10 minute breaks between sprints.
I make sure that at some point during the day I get a good yoga session in, followed by a meditation or some chanting. Last night I dreamt of cleansing my space, so at some point today I will probably smudge the house. A good spiritual cleansing can never hurt. Reading is another comfort, goodness knows my TBR for this month has a bit of everything so I have lots to choose from.
Then lastly a solo dance party is the cherry on top! At the moment Harry Styles is my happy music but who knows where the playlist will go!
What’s something that you do to help lift your spirits?
I hope you’re all having a good day and may the rest of your weekend be amazing!
I don’t know about you but I’ve been feeling chaotic today! For the past week I have been struggling to concentrate or focus on anything. It almost feels like brain fog, I find myself triple checking the things I write to make sure it makes sense, I have to read things a few times to help it sink in. My anxiety has been insane, intrusive thoughts galore and the most vivid dreams. The energies and the movements of the planets have me feeling all topsy turvy. People are intimidating, the outside world is scary and all I want to do is take a nap! (I have been taking many naps. Listen to your body!) I feel like a mixture of The Mad Hatter, The March Hare and The Dormouse…. I should get myself some tea.
So with all the weirdness, I’ve thrown myself into some self study and serious manifestation practices! What do you do when you’re feeling all blah and up in the air?
For now I will try to embrace the madness and get through the rest of the month. Hopefully things will calm down, hopefully the energy becomes more gentle because I don’t think I can take this for much longer.
“I’m afraid I can’t explain myself, sir. Because I am not myself, you see?”
Hey everyone, I know I haven’t blogged in a while. Life went a bit wonky there for a second. It still feels like the world is spinning around me and I’m struggling to get my footing but the spinning seems to be slowing down a little. (Hopefully.)
I decided to check in and write a blog post, perhaps writing will help.
Navigating this world without my mom is very daunting to me. When she was around I always had someone to talk to, someone who would drop everything and listen, give advice and help me reach a decision. I took that for granted. I never realized it would go away so soon. Today an opportunity came knocking and I desperately needed to talk it out. Luckily my cousin was happy to listen but ultimately I still had to take control of the thought process and my decisions. It’s in moments like that, that I feel like a little child drowning. My mom wasn’t just my mom. She was my best friend, my business partner and we were each others biggest fans. We did everything together, especially when it came to our business and now I have to make these decisions alone. A big part of me feels like I can’t, like I’m missing a step, like I’m not allowed to make these decisions alone. It’s a very strange feeling. I’m not sure I’ll ever get used to it. Ultimately, I did make a choice and I’m happy with my choice because I know it’s the right thing to do but there’s a small part of me that’s always worried that I might be going in the wrong direction and there isn’t anyone who knows me well enough to stop me from walking off a cliff by accident. I get that this is part of life and everyone goes through moments of being scared, imposter syndrome effects many, many people. I’ve just never felt so lost.
The only thing getting me through, is the knowledge I have gathered throughout my life. The practices that keep me breathing deeply and my loved ones that are still here. I know that’s all I really need to navigate my way through this life and I’m grateful but it’s still scary.
If you’re going through anything scary at the moment, know that you’re not alone. Let’s take a deep breath in together. In through the nose and sigh it out! Again through the nose and out through the mouth. Let go of that fear. One last time, in through the nose and a big sigh out. Know that you are loved and know that you are safe.
So, once again I was humbled by the lack of internet. I was completely disconnected form the online world. I obviously have a lesson I need to learn because this keeps happening. It was two weeks of feeling lost and free. I realized a few things about myself and others. Without the internet I have no idea what is going on in other peoples lives. What does that say about our communication skills? No one talks to each other anymore. It’s easier to post a story on social media and hopefully everyone who needs to see it, does. I’m sure I’ve missed out on a lot. I took the time to really focus on my self healing and I must say, I feel wonderful. Now I can talk about it online! I do see the irony.
I have now completed my 21 days of self healing, I have done some cord cutting and my garden is thriving. I have spent time doing the things that bring me pure joy. I have been reading, studying, healing and spreading the good vibes wherever I can. Taking a step away can make a huge difference.
I’ve been doing a lot of self healing surrounding abundance. Abundance comes to us in so many different ways, and sometimes we close ourselves off from it by accident. Something as small as receiving a cup of coffee with a loving heart is opening yourself to abundance. I’ve started to say yes to all abundance coming my way and I am so thankful for it. I am once again evolving and changing from who I used to be and I love it. I say goodbye to that part of me with love in my heart, I forgive myself and I move on. I will never be that version of myself ever again and that is why it’s so important to love ourselves in the moment. Enjoy this version of yourself right now.
I am nearly done setting up my Reiki room, and I am beyond excited to start healing again. I have lots of exciting new ideas and some interesting experiences in the works. I’m also currently editing my novel like a crazy person. I’m doing Camp NaNoWriMo this month and I really would love to have the manuscript ready for proofreaders by the end of the month.
So my lovely readers, that’s my little update. I plan on posting again soon (if the internet stays on) and I look forward to sharing this journey with you all. I hope you have all been keeping safe and healthy out there!
I AM FLOWING WITH LIFE. THE UNIVERSE LOVES AND SUPPORTS ME. I ATTRACT ABUNDANCE INTO MY LIFE. I AM HEALTHY, I FEEL ALIVE. I LOVE AND APPRECIATE MY BODY AND MY MIND. I FLOW THROUGH FORGIVENESS AND INTO LOVE. I AM LOVE AND I AM LOVED. I AM PEACEFUL AND SAFE. I AM BLESSED IN EVERY AREA OF MY LIFE. I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. I LET GO OF THE PAST WITH LOVE. I FORGIVE MYSELF. I TRUST THE PROCESS OF LIFE. I AM OPEN AND RECEPTIVE TO ALL GOOD. I LOVE AND APPROVE OF MYSELF. I AM ENOUGH.
I find it so interesting how we are challenged when we embark on our healing journeys. I started my 21 days of self healing on the 3rd and its been wonderful. I’ve grown in so many ways but yesterday a trigger of mine popped up and I find my reaction interesting. I’m still overthinking it and irrational thought is trying very hard to make it’s way into my mind but the anxiety is less, the fear is less. I am so grateful for that. I know that I need to keep the faith and carry on with my healing, I know that this trigger is just another lesson and I need to grow through it. I don’t need to react to it. I don’t need to hop onto the worry train.
I’ve always felt that my paranoia and my anxiety is kind of like an addiction. I’ve been struggling with it for such a long time that I have no idea what life could be like without it. What is life like with no irrational fear? A big part of me is scared to find out. That’s why I’m finding dealing with this trigger a bit difficult, it would be so easy to fall back into that comfort zone of fear, intrusive thoughts and utter misery but I don’t want to feel scared anymore. It’s so tiring. At the same time I must not fall back into my old way of dealing with it, I must not fret and I realize that sounds an awful lot like worrying but I don’t mean it that way.
Fret verb gerund or present participle: fretting
1. be constantly or visibly anxious. “she fretted about the cost of groceries” Similar: worry, be anxious, feel uneasy, be distressed, be upset, upset oneself, concern oneself.
2. gradually wear away (something) by rubbing or gnawing. “the bay’s black waves fret the seafront”
I fret, as in the second meaning. I feel like my old way of dealing with triggers was by rubbing at it, wearing it away, trying to make it go away by erasing it through relentless force. It was exhausting but I can feel myself trying to do that again.
Though I refuse to fall back into those old ways and I will continue to work through it. I will continue to do the things that have helped me thus far. I will continue on with my 21 days. I will be gentle. I will flow through it. I will show life that I’m willing to walk along with it, I will match it’s pace, I will hold it’s hand. I will not try to make it turn around or change.
So if you feel like you are constantly being challenged in your healing journey and you want to give up. Don’t. Just carry on, flow through it and keep healing. I believe in you.
I AM ENERGIZED. I AM LOVED. I AM CONFIDENT. I AM CREATIVE. THE UNIVERSE LOVES AND SUPPORTS ME. I AM INSPIRED. I ATTRACT LOVE AND KINDNESS INTO MY LIFE. I ALLOW MYSELF TO ENJOY LIFE. I ATTRACT POSITIVE PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE. I AM HOPEFUL. I AM LOVING AND KIND. I CELEBRATE CHANGE. I AM SAFE AT ALL TIMES. I AM ENOUGH. ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD.
Feel free to use any of these, and I encourage you to come up with a few of your own that aligns perfectly with your needs.
I hope you are all having a beautiful day or night.
Hello everyone, I know I’ve been very quiet, and I know that March started like, a week ago. (Oops) I do hope that you’ve all been well out there!
I don’t know about you but I can feel the seasons beginning to change and I can’t be more excited for the cold! Since it’s been getting cooler, I’ve been getting up earlier. It doesn’t feel like the sun is melting my eyeballs anymore. Thank goodness.
So what have you been up to? I’ve been up and down over that past couple of months but I seem to be getting back to myself again. I’ve put a lot of work into me and I’ve found a part of myself that I thought I had lost a long time ago. Something that I haven’t shared here, or at least I think I haven’t shared here is that I’m a Reiki practitioner, I studied Usui Reiki back in 2016 and 2017. I finished all three my degrees and I had my own little practice. Not long ago, I was sorting through some of my mom’s stuff and I found my certificates. It hit me hard that I’ve been hiding away from a huge part of myself… the Healer in me.
So, I got hold of my old Reiki Master, teacher and friend. I got a refresher and an attunement. The minute that energy hit me, I felt, home. I felt, whole. I felt my mom embracing me. It was wonderful.
Now I’m in the middle of my 21 days of self healing and then I’ll slowly get back into practicing on my friends and family. Every night, I do my healing, I meditate and I cry happy tears. I never want to lose this part of myself ever gain. No more running. There’s a lot of change in the air, many things I want to expand on and learn. As you all know, I am a huge fan of change, this is going to be good. I can feel it in my bones.
I will keep you guys up to date on my healing journey and I’m sending you all loads of good vibes and positive energy.
Hey everyone, how are you all? Are you finding January weird? I know that January is never really easy but this year feels different to me. The further we got into Jan and the closer we keep inching towards February, the weirder it feels. With lockdown, crazy incidents all over the world and my unending grief, I have no idea how to feel anymore. I am sure you can all relate to these feelings.
Something I am finding strange about my own habits this month is how long it takes me to do anything. Sometimes I can sit on a blog post for days. It has taken me a week to dig a flower bed in my back yard and I only write about 200 words a day on my current work in progress. I keep telling myself that its better than nothing. So, in saying all that… I have decided that tomorrow I will sit down with my art journal, my normal journal and my habit tracker. I want to plan out a few spreads and put together some to-do lists. Hopefully I can get some flow back into my non existent routine. I am so close to finishing my work in progress and I have already started the planning for my next project. I need to get out of the habit of starting something and getting distracted by my grief halfway through.
I think I’ll put together a blog post of some of my journal spreads, lets see how far I get.
I hope the January weirdness hasn’t been too much for you all and I really hope you are all safe and healthy out there. Here’s to finding some creativity and being more productive. May we all find our smiles and lightheartedness again!
I AM INSPIRED AND CREATIVE. I CREATE WITH EASE AND I ATTRACT LOVE AND KINDNESS INTO MY WORLD. ALL IS WELL.
Hey everyone, I hope you are all staying safe and healthy out there.
I don’t know about you, but I haven’t been feeling very motivated. I’ve been struggling with my own mental health and I can’t seem to get back into the flow of writing. All of my projects are waiting for my attention. The festive season really did take it’s toll. I’ve been very tired, watching TV has been a big comfort and all I can think about is how much I miss my mom. I remind myself every day not to be too hard on myself. I know I’ve suffered great loss over the past few months and I need time to mourn but I feel like I’m just losing the need to do anything at all. So, I’m trying to find and create the things that make me happy. You know what makes me happy? Being outside in my garden makes me happy. The fresh air, the breeze on my skin… flowers smiling up at me, the earth grounding me. Having that time in nature is a life saver. Flowers have always made me smile. My mother always had freshly cut flowers in the house. I made sure to have all of her favorite flowers in the garden so that she could make arrangements for the house.
We have always been blessed to have a garden. No matter where we moved, we always had a garden. There’s nothing like looking out your window and seeing big trees, colorful flowers and green grass. When I do my gratitude practices in the morning and at night, I always list my garden twice.
Another thing that makes me happy is Art. Art has and always will be one of the most important things in my life. When I am feeling anxious, paranoid or sad I pick up a pen. Just a normal ballpoint pen and I sketch. Ballpoint pen is one of my favorite mediums. I don’t sketch out anything with pencil first, it’s just pen on paper. In the beginning it did intimidate me a bit but all I hear when I start doubting myself is my art teachers voice in my head. “There is no such thing as mistakes in art.” He never allowed us to use erasers, he hated erasers. If we wanted to practice certain techniques or get a hang of a new style then we had to use our sketchbooks but the minute we took to our final canvas, there were no more mistakes only happy coincidences.
I thought it was harsh and it did give me anxiety as a kid but if he never taught me that lesson, I know in my heart, I wouldn’t be as confident with my art as I am today. The point wasn’t to make us perfect, it wasn’t to make our art perfect… he taught us that, so that we could accept the imperfection in or art. So that we could see that our “mistakes” were valuable.
So yes, my art is full of beautiful ”mistakes” and I embrace them. The ”mistakes” in my pieces make them more beautiful to me.
Finding things that make us happy is important. Finding helpful ways to get us through hard times is important. Our mental health is important. I have to remind myself constantly, that these things are important. So I start small… when I feel awful, I go and sit with my flowers, I wriggle my toes in the earth. Then I take out my pen and paper, I sketch for as long as I need to. After a while I feel myself become lighter.
What do you turn to when you feel all alone in the harsh world? What brings you happiness? Remember to make time for the things that make you feel lighter. Now give yourself a tight hug, and know you are loved.
Happy New Year everyone! 2021 has arrived! A huge part of me is shocked at how fast last year went by even though it felt slow most of the time. I suppose that’s because it was a year mostly spent in lockdown. We have all lost so much in 2020 but I would like to think that we have all at least gained something from last year even of it’s just a lesson learned.
Going into a new year is exciting, it’s a fresh start. I hope that we can all leave the negative feelings about 2020 in the past. We must live in the moment and look forward to a brighter future. The universe is still there, we are all still loved and we have so much to be grateful for. The sun rises each day and the earth keeps spinning. The birds still sings for us, flowers still bloom for us, the trees still dance for us and the stars still wink at us each night. Let us all be grateful for this wondrous planet that we call home.
Today I am grateful for the new beginnings on the way. I am grateful for the sun shining brightly. I am grateful for my animals. I am grateful for my home and I am grateful for my family.
What are you grateful for today?
I have few new posts brewing in my mind and I look forward to a year of sharing thoughts, creating new memories and flourishing growth.
Hello everyone! Can you believe it? This year is almost over! I am looking forward to a new year, and a fresh start. I will be writing a post to wish everyone a happy new year but I wanted to share my affirmations that I am planning on using for this fresh start.
THE UNIVERSE LOVES AND SUPPORTS ME. I AM SAFE AND SECURE. I AM INSPIRED. I AM ENOUGH. I DESERVE LOVE AND HAPPINESS. I WELCOME CHANGE. I AM SURROUNDED BY LOVE. I AM PROSPEROUS. I AM FLOURISHING. I AM SURROUNDED BY PEACE. I ATTRACT KIND PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE. I MAKE NEW CONNECTIONS WITH EASE. I ATTRACT NEW OPPURTUNITIES. I LOVE MYSELF. I AM BLESSED. I AM HEALTHY. I AM STRONG. I AM CAPABLE. I LOVE WHAT I DO. I LOVE MY LIFE. I AM SAFE. ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD.
THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.
Are you guys setting intentions and affirmations for the new year? I think setting intentions, making goals and working with affirmations can really propel you forward. I know it helps me so much. I hope you all have a safe and blessed new year. I’ll post again on the 1st.
Hey everyone, I don’t know about you but it has been a crazy month so far! My body feels like… well, it doesn’t feel energized and good. I know I have spoken about the breath before, I can’t really stop talking about it, but that’s just because it is so important to come home to yourself.
Lately I’ve been gravitating towards my mat more and more, which I am very happy about. In times when we feel horrible, it’s important to feed the soul and take care of the body. I do yoga twice a day and I make sure to add some cardio in the mix every day. I do three meditation sessions each day too. One of the meditations will always be a visualization of some kind. All of these practices keep me sane and grounded. When I feel lost I get on the mat and I find my breath. Once I have arrived home, I can then focus my intensions, I feel the gratitude on a deeper level. I visualize my goals being achieved.
One of the things I have noticed with my mental health and the trauma related issues I have, is that it’s imperative that I keep bringing myself back to the present. I need to remind myself what is real and what is not. What is current and what is in the past. The best way to do that for me, is practicing coming home to myself. I breathe. It doesn’t always work but like anything in life the more you do it the easier it becomes.
I am grateful for my breath, I am grateful for my body and I am grateful for life.
I hope you’re all keeping safe and healthy out there and I am sending love to the entire world.
Hello everyone, I have been trying to write for the past few days but the words are not forth coming, being blocked is never fun, no matter what kind of art you make. When I have a creative block it gives me immense stress and guilt. So I try to find comfort in the small things while I get my brain back in order. I try to remind myself often that no matter how broken I feel, or how sad and lonely I may be, that I can still find comfort and a moment of happiness in some things. That in itself, is a comfort.
Here are some things that bring me those good cozy feelings. Night, I feel worse during the day. Sometimes I think it’s because in the brightness of the day I can clearly make out the difficulties in my life, but at night, it’s softer, blurred out in a way. Rain, I love the rain. It makes me feel like me and the earth is being cleansed. All the bad stuff is being washed away when it rains and that brings me so much joy. It helps me breathe easier. The moon. The moon and I don’t always get along and that’s my fault. Sometimes the moon intimidates me but in the moments when I feel blocked and stuck, the moon actually inspires me. Don’t even get me going on the stars (not that I can see many at night). I think I’ll just say that the night sky is a huge comfort. Flowers, I get lost in the beauty of flowers. Flowers not only bring me comfort but they make me feel hopeful and protected.
I feel like I should mention one other thing that kicks my creative block where the sun don’t shine and that’s Television. I know that sounds awful after all the wonderful natural remedies I turn to for comfort but I’d be lying if I said that I only get comfort from the beautiful nature around me. There’s nothing like a good story and since I’m a very visual person, television inspires me to write amazing stories. Getting lost in a good movie or series also brings me comfort, blocked or not… it helps my brain.
Oh and don’t forget the huge amounts of chocolate!
What brings you guys comfort? I hope that everyone is happy and healthy out there!
Hey everyone! I put some mood boards together today and I thought I would share them here. I’m a very visual person, so creating boards like these really give me a boost of creativity and inspiration which I then channel into my writing.
For me this month is all about trying to find some kind of balance and self care. My mental health is crumbling to pieces but I’m trying to do things that bring me joy, to kind of combat the negative. I want to give myself the best possible start to the new year, so its important to me that I get my ducks in a row this month. I have lots of goals for next month but nothing will happen if I don’t put the work in, starting right now.
I hope you guys are having a good December so far, wherever you are in the world! It’s hot here, I wish it was cold though. The sun and I have a love hate relationship going on. Stay safe and healthy out there! As always I am sending loads of good vibes your way! 🙂
Hey everyone! I hope you’re all keeping safe and healthy. I can’t believe it’s the end of the year! I’m looking forward to 2021. I am in no way expecting all our problems to disappear but there is something so hopeful about a fresh new year. 2020 has taken so much away from us. It’s hard to think that this is my first Christmas without my mom, without my wonderful Godmother and without the others we have lost. As a family, this festive season is probably going to be the saddest time. I know for me, it will be the hardest Christmas I will ever face. That said, I do welcome 2021, I have hope that it will be a year of growth and success for me. I am looking forward to achieving some goals and I really look forward to change.
My momma wanted the best for me, she wanted me to thrive and I’m going to make the next year of my life a thriving one.
I have been painting a lot, I have been doodling, I have been sketching and I’ve been doing a lot of yoga. My go to comforts have been helping me immensely. Music has been a saving grace for me too. I have been focusing most of my time on my writing. I did not win Nanowrimo this year but I am proud of what I achieved. My current projects are coming along nicely. The fantasy novel I’m working on is more of a closure project for me (if that makes sense) and I’m going in with my second round of edits for my Contemporary. All in all creatively, I’ve forced myself through the pain.
I am grateful for all the practices that bring me comfort. I crave people and physical comfort, I miss the act of holding someone’s hand. I miss having face to face conversations but I know, in my heart that we just need to give this situation time and grace. We will be okay.
This is a book I keep coming back to. I was a teenager the first time I read it. My mom was a big fan and she encouraged me to read it and I am so glad that she did. It isn’t complicated, it is encouraging and gentle in it’s teaching. I found it very easy to latch onto the idea of the Law Of Attraction and I started practicing it immediately. The stories told and examples in this book are heart warming and very encouraging.
“MICHAEL BERNARD BECKWITH – Creation is always happening. Every time an individual has a thought, or a prolonged chronic way of thinking, they’re in the creation process. Something is going to manifest out of those thoughts. What you are thinking now is creating your future life. You create your life with your thoughts. Because you are always thinking, you are always creating. What you think about the most or focus on the most, is what will appear as your life. Like all the laws of nature, there is utter perfection in this law. You create your life. Whatever you sow, you reap! Your thoughts are seeds, and the harvest you reap will depend on the seeds you plant. If you are complaining, the law of attraction will powerfully bring into your life more situations for you to complain about. If you are listening to someone else complain and focusing on that, sympathizing with them, agreeing with them, in that moment, you are attracting more situations to yourself to complain about. The law is simply reflecting and giving back to you exactly what you are focusing on with your thoughts. With this powerful knowledge, you can completely change every circumstance and event in your entire life, by changing the way you think.” ― Rhonda Byrne, The Secret
It’s all about gratitude! I know I have spoken about gratitude before, it is such an important part of manifestation. If we are not grateful for what we already have, how will we receive more? I fall in and out of my practices as I am sure you know by now but when I try to get back into it, this is the first book I pick up. I always start on day one and then everyday after that I just open the book to a random page and do the exercise for that day in the book. This book teaches you a way of constant gratitude. Wake up thankful, go to sleep thankful. See a photo of someone you love- be thankful for them. It teaches you to set gratitude routines that you can easily apply to your life. I personally love gratitude, it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside to think about how blessed I am.
“Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn’t learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn’t learn a little, at least we didn’t get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn’t die; so, let us all be thankful.” ― Rhonda Byrne, The Magic
Another simple and friendly book. I enjoy the way it was written and the message is beautiful. Turn your wishes into goals. This book also brings something to attention that my mother always taught me and that is to put my affirmations and goals in present tense. She would tell me to say it out loud. That way you are affirming it to yourself. This book was also one of her favorites.
“Wherever your path takes you, may all your deathbed wishes come true, and may you celebrate each and every one of them many long years before your final breath.” ― Gay Hendricks, Five Wishes
I’m going to write a separate post on my favorite spiritual books. I hope you are all safe and healthy out there! Count your blessings and keep smiling. You are loved! YOU ARE ENOUGH!
Hey everyone. How quirky are you? Do you have weird nervous ticks? Do you do strange things? I do… So I thought I would write down those things. 🙂
When I am nervous or feeling awkward/shy, these are some of the things I catch myself doing.
I talk to myself. I wave my hands around a lot. I blush…. it’s not cute. I shake my head. I blink fast. I dance randomly and then feel embarrassed. I speak in accents (badly). If I am writing, I spell things wrong or more specifically, I add in double letters. Sooo…. Foood… skinnny…. feelinngs… laugghter… (I find this embarrassing too.) My dyslexia gets worse. I wriggle my nose. I rub my hair against my lips. I play with my hair. I swear a lot. A lot. I become a sailor. I giggle. Just to name a few.
I find it so interesting to observe myself and watch how I react to different emotions in different situations. The more negative situations bring on a whole different set of quirks. The ones I have listed here are the good ones. I watch myself. I stay present in all my discomfort because I find it crucial to healing. If I know how something makes me feel and I don’t enjoy that feeling, I then have the power to change it. I can change how I perceive whatever it may be. If I like how it’s making me feel, then I just sit and enjoy it. Even if it’s embarrassing.
I hope everyone is doing well, staying safe and healthy! As always I am sending out loads of love to the entire world!
Hey everyone, how are you? I hope you’ve all had a beautiful week.
I thought I would write about grief today. I think at this point you all know what I have been through this year and I was just talking to one of my cousins, she lives overseas and I haven’t seen her since I was a kid but we have always stayed in touch. She messaged to check in on me and my dad. While we spoke I got to thinking about how I really feel. What my grief feels like and I explained it to her like this… We all grieve differently and life tends to carry on. I can’t blame people for not standing still with me. So, it’s me and my dad, we’re alone, we’ve only got each other and we’re standing still for the moment. It’s tough but it’s better than forcing ourselves to walk before we’re ready. That is what grief feels like for me. It feels like I am standing still while the rest of the world keeps moving on. I am in my own pain, standing still.
I hope you guys are okay and managing during these tough times. The world is a little crazy right now and I am sure we are all experiencing many emotions. I am sending out loads of love to everyone. Stay safe out there.
Hiya everyone! I hope you have all been keeping safe and healthy!
I just thought I would give a little update on my life right now. I have been working really hard on my writing recently. I have had to make some tough choices and I am having to look at my life from a different angle. So I have gone into October with a different game plan. I am focusing on my main goal which is getting my novel published but I am also doing Nanowrimo this year. I skipped the past couple of years but I am excited to partake this year. So I have been doing a lot of preptober stuff, which has been really exciting! I have been making playlists, mood boards, I’ve been outlining and focusing on research.
I have been grieving and writing, writing and grieving. Sometimes I am worried that too much of my grief is seeping into the book but that’s okay. That’s what editing is for. So, that is my life currently.
What have you been working on? Anything creative happening in your life? Creativity is the best isn’t it?
Hiya! So, I disappeared again. Life has been a bit hard recently and I am sure everyone can relate to that but I don’t want to lose touch with my blog so, I will try to post at least once a month from now on.
I have been battling with depression and obsessive thoughts lately and I have found myself gravitating to my watercolors and gouache. My mind clears when I paint and I am so grateful that there is an activity that can keep me sane. We need silence and peace in our minds and I am constantly trying to find ways of calming my obsessive thoughts. Letting go is so important. I am guilty of forgetting to help myself find silence but when I do, it feels wonderful.
Here are some of my little creations.
It’s not much and it doesn’t have to be good. I paint for me and my mental health. I paint to let go. I hope you guys are giving yourselves the chance to let go too. These are difficult times and we need to give ourselves a break from the noise every now and then.
I am, as always, sending loads of love and good vibes to everyone on this beautiful planet. Stay strong and safe. Be gentle with yourselves and others.
So today I reached a bit of a breaking point and I realized I have to make a change. I need to start fresh. My mental health has been suffering and a lot of my old issues have come back. I have been suffering with flashbacks and I am in a constant state of fear and crippling anxiety. I’m glad I made this decision because now I can focus on a new start. There is a lot of change on it’s way but I have always loved change. I do pride myself in being very flexible and open to change. I am going to have to make some more difficult decisions in the near future but I think it’s all for the best and I look forward to seeing where the rest of the year will lead me. I hope that with the change I will be able to start healing properly.
Change can be wonderful and I often encourage people to embrace change. It can be very beneficial. Here is an affirmation for those who struggle with change.
I trust in life and I am safe in all situations. Change allows me to grow and flourish. All is well in my world.
I keep amazing myself at how bad I am at socializing lately. I was taught from a young age how to interact with people and how to talk about multiple subjects but this year has screwed me up in that department. I am suddenly the most awkward weird person in conversation. I’m pretty sure it’s just because I have been out of practice since lockdown but it still shocks me every time. I got my hair cut yesterday and my stylist is an old school friend, so obviously she wants to catch up while doing my hair. I kept falling over my words, saying strange things. I even stuttered a couple of times. I can only shake my head at myself. Bless her though, she still wants to grab lunch one day soon. I’m probably being too hard on myself. But still… This has been going on for a while now.
So what I’ve started doing is reading out loud. Mostly classics. I like to read more difficult pieces too, so that I can keep building my vocab which has dwindled lately. Language and speech is like anything else in life, you just need to practice!
Do you guys feel the same way? Has lockdown and the energies of the world kind of screwed up your ability to be around people, is talking an issue or is it just me?
Anyway, I thought I would air my feelings on this. I hope you guys are having a beautiful day.
Hi guys, I’ve been having a hard time. I have been second guessing everything, paranoia has been pestering me and my anxiety is high. Not to mention the grief. I want you guys to know that it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to say it out loud. Know that you can sit with those emotions. Feel them. Your feelings are real, it’s part of what makes us human. Sometimes we just need to let it out.
So, with that said, there is something I enjoy doing when I’m feeling low and I want to change my energy. I do this when I have worked through the emotions and I want to move on. I create mood boards with affirmations. It’s a fun, creative thing to do and I thought I would share a few that I created this evening. It just helps to shift my focus. Sometimes I create a playlist to go along with the mood boards too.
Doing something like this may seem silly at first but after a while you may get into it. It can be helpful to give something visual for the brain to latch on to and with the added affirmations it can make a huge difference. Just thinking up the affirmations can shift your energy completely. I make sure I am reminding myself to smile while doing this. I put on some of my favorite music (I’ve been on an Electropop and R&B kick lately.) I might dance around a little at my desk. The point of this is to distract myself and I find it very effective as long as I am doing it consciously.
Let me know if you guys try this. 🙂 I am sending you all good vibes!
Hey guys! I have escaped for a while. I forced myself to get out of the house. I think it was about time that I got some country air. I have been stuck in my house with no one to talk to for just over three months now. I am getting really tired of talking to myself and unfortunately my dogs can’t reply to my ramblings. (How cool would that be if they could though?)
So when my aunt invited me for a midweek getaway, I agreed to join her. It’s the first time I have left my dogs and my father since my mother passed. It’s been an emotional time. I cried for ages the first night. It just felt so wrong to be away from home. I phoned my father and then before I knew it we were both crying. Grief is a funny thing, you never know when it might hit and when it does hit, it hits hard. My mother has been gone for three months now and I know that if I don’t start pushing myself to actually go out and do things and be with people, I’ll just live my life indoors. I will become more of a recluse than I already am. I know that my mom would have wanted me to carry on living, to do things and experience things. So here I am, sitting in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by trees and pretty birds.
I need to keep reminding myself that its good to get away, change my environment but its hard and I accept that. I have had a few breakdowns, it has been messy but I allow myself to feel the emotions.
I will be home tomorrow, back to my normal routine, so I will try to make the most of my last day here. I hope all of you are having a good week and I’ll post soon!
Hello everyone! I hope you all had a good weekend.
In a recent post I spoke about coming back to your breath as a way of being in the present moment. I know that some people struggle with just relying on the following of the breath taught in meditation. I know that sometimes that isn’t helpful enough. I do suffer with a lot of anxiety and as I have said, coming back to the present moment is a fantastic way to move on form those disturbing feelings. Last night I was having horrible flashbacks of my mothers death and I tried to come back to my breath, follow it in and out to calm myself and come back to the moment, but the memories were unrelenting. So, I did something new and I wanted to share it with you. Maybe you will find it helpful too.
When, in a time of anxiety or negative thinking, see a candle in your minds eye. A bright shining flame dancing lightly. Focus on the flame and breathe deeply. Your thoughts may try to distract you, they may try to snuff out the flame but just remember that you can always come back to the flame. The flame is the present moment. When you need to come home to yourself. Just look at the flame. It’s as simple as that but I do find the visual helpful.
I hope this helps you too and I hope you are having a peaceful Monday. 🙂
Hey everyone! I hope you have all been staying safe and healthy out there! I really want to get back to my practices. I have gotten back to my yoga and I have been working out everyday. (Chloe Ting has been killing me.) I’ve also started painting again. Now I want to get back into my gratitude and affirmation practices. I also need to start meditating every day again. Today I thought I would start with the affirmations. So I have put together a list of affirmations and I’m going to post it here! Whenever I think of a new one I will add it to the list. 🙂 Feel free to use any of the affirmations that may resonate with you.
I AM ATTRACTING PEACE AND LOVE INTO MY LIFE I AM SAFE IN EVERY AREA OF MY LIFE THE UNIVERSE LOVES AND SUPPORTS ME, ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD I AM SURROUNDED BY LOVE AND KINDNESS I LIVE A PEACEFUL LIFE
I AM SAFE I AM LOVED I AM CREATIVE I AM SURROUNDED BY HAPPINESS AND LOVE I AM SECURE I AM INSPIRED BY LIFE LIFE IS WONDERFUL AND ALL IS WELL I AM ABUNDANT I AM BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD I AM OPEN TO CHANGE I GO WITH THE FLOW OF THE UNIVERSE I AM STRONG I ATTRACT GOOD THINGS INTO MY LIFE I AM SURROUNDED BY WONDERFUL PEOPLE
That’s it for today. I will keep adding to this list.
So, today I decided to do something I haven’t done in a long while! I picked up my paints and paintbrush. I want to get back to my art. I recently sketched a character that I liked the look of, crazy long neck, strange features… small mouth. I don’t know why I felt a connection to this character but I thought he deserved some color. So I sketched him again with a little more detail and I added some paint. I really like the look of him and I think I will be keeping him as a character to return to. The painting is still rather rough but I am happy with it as my return to art. I thought I would share what I did with you guys. The other painting was just a warm up to play with the paint and colors.
Have you guys been creating anything interesting?
Anyway, I hope you guys have been staying happy and healthy!
Life keeps throwing me curve balls. We have had yet another death in the family and I just can’t wrap my mind around the truth of 2020. Besides the deaths, I have been struggling with my anxiety and mental health too. Its been particularly hard over the past couple of months.
I have to keep reminding myself to come back to the present. I was listening to a wonderful podcast not long ago and it was reiterated over and over again that if we are struggling with anxiety or negativity then all we need to do is come back to the breath, come back to the moment. Automatically when we focus on our breath we are brought back to the present moment. That’s why in meditation we are told that during the practice, if our mind wanders then all we need to do is focus on the breath.
Coming back to the breath, back to yourself is so incredibly powerful but I find we forget to do it actively throughout our day. I am in the process of trying to train myself to keep coming back whenever my mind wanders too far. Too far being the past (especially the past) and the distant future, the fears of the future. I of course allow myself to think of the future in terms of positive goals and things I have to think about like making dinner but those aren’t harmful to my mental health. It’s when those niggling worries or the regrets resurface that I need to remind myself to turn away from that, and find my breath. It really is as simple as breathing. We are remarkable beings, it is so simple to find ourselves, to center ourselves but with all of the conditioning we have been through since birth, we find it difficult. I have been practicing meditation and yoga for many years now and I still struggle.
We need to be aware of our presence because ultimately we are the present moment. Everything that is happening in our body, all of our functions are happening now. If we are aware of ourselves, we realize that we are always present. Our thoughts need to center back to our bodies, to our energy, to our present. There is no point in fretting over the future or regretting our past because right now, our bodies are functioning. We are breathing, we are digesting, we are seeing, we can smell something. We are fine, we are safe in this very moment because we are alive and that is a blessing.
I can go on and on about this but ultimately, we don’t need to make it hard. It doesn’t have to be a chore. It doesn’t have to be scary. It is as simple as breathing and watching that breath, feel that breath. Place your hand on your tummy and breathe. Feel the air rush into your lungs as you breathe in, feel your rib cage expand and smile. The first time I practiced this, many years ago… I was in a really bad place mentally and I was told to meditate. I started with simple breathing exercises. Coming back to myself, to my breath and feeling the amazement, the miracle of my body brought me to tears. It was like I came home. Which I did.
So, I encourage you to do this. Go home to yourself today. Experience it with an open loving heart. Be present with yourself.
Things are going better here. I have found hope again and boy am I holding onto it tightly. I love the feeling of being hopeful. I have woken up four days in a row feeling hopeful. When my mom passed away I thought I would never see the beauty in the world again. I felt there would only be darkness because she was my light. I still struggle but this hopeful feeling is encouraging me to start living again.
Losing my Aunt/Godmother so soon after my mom was crippling and since then there have been two more deaths close to us and my Uncle is extremely ill in hospital. Today my father lost a good friend of his suddenly. So the feeling of death is still heavy but at the same time I can see the new leaves on the trees, we are going into our spring, the birds are happy and there is birth all around me. A friend of mine just became a granny again. My little cousins keep growing and I have another little cousin on the way. There is death but there is also new life. I can see the beauty in that and I know I need to embrace both the light and the dark. I will continue to go with the flow of my emotions and when I am feeling good, I’ll allow myself to enjoy it.
It’s like a friend of mine was saying, (she lost her dad a few years ago.) there will be times when the emotions hit me so hard I’ll fall. I will miss my mom more than anything in those moments but at the same time I must remember that just because I am feeling good that doesn’t mean I have forgotten about her. I don’t need to feel guilty about it. (easier said than done, I know).
2020 has been a shit show for all of us and I am happy to say that I am looking forward to 2021, I am hoping for some good moments, lots of excitement and adventure. I will allow the hope to grow and flourish in my heart. I look forward to sharing good times with my family and friends. I am thankful for the wonderful future on it’s way to greet me.
I am sending you all loads of love and good vibes.
How do you feel at this moment? With everything going on in the world, I often ask myself this question. How am I feeling right now? Often the answer is tired and lonely. Then, I remember that I am not alone at all, just outside my door, the sun is shining, the birds are singing, the bees are buzzing. All I need to do to feel better is step outside.
You are not alone, I promise you that. The sun rises every morning, go and greet it. Feel the love radiating down from it. Kneel down and touch the grass, or the ground… feel it’s warm embrace. Nature loves us so much and yet we do not feel it. When I feel down I know that I can go outside, no matter where I am and find some love in the nature and elements around me. Perhaps a playful breeze or some rain, a flower or a bird singing it’s song. Go outside and feel that love!
You know that feeling when someone makes you feel as light as a feather. Makes you realize that there’s more to relationships, friendships, people and life. I treasure those feelings. In times as hard as these it’s important to hold onto the people that make your life extra special. The people that show up for you everyday, know that it’s okay to need space, respects different opinions and makes you feel safe…. hold on to those people.
I have been blessed with a few people like this but one in particular has been keeping me sane in these extremely hard times and I am so grateful. Tonight she brought the biggest smile to my face and my heart is actually feeling happy. I have no idea how long this will last but I’m going to enjoy it while it does. I was so taken by these good mushy feelings that I had to write about it.
So, if you ever feel this way… just sit in the good feelings, let them sink into your bones. Allow the good feelings, the fluttering, the love, the joy, the laughter… allow them to take over. Welcome them. There’s enough darkness in the world, you can afford to ponder on these good things for a little while.
I hope you are all well and safe out there. Sending loads of good vibes to everyone.
I have officially returned to my mat. My safe space.
I have been doing yoga everyday for a week now and I am very happy about it. I have missed being on the mat, I have given myself this week to get back into my practice. I step on my mat everyday, even if it’s just for ten minutes, even if all I do is stay in child’s pose, I am okay with that. I showed up for myself and I can’t help but feel a peace flourishing in my body and spirit. I am still hurting, mourning and I cry everyday but I know that while I am on my mat, it is a safe space to let all of those emotions out.
A few days ago, I decided to practice some Yin and I focused on my grief, on the heaviness in my heart and body. The power thoughts that guided me through the practice helped me break down. I didn’t realize how much I had been holding back and bottling for the past few weeks but a lot of it came out and that never would have happened if it wasn’t for my conscious decision to get back onto my mat and take my practice seriously again.
My body is becoming accustomed to the movements again, the flow is returning to my aching body and heart. I cry and feel all the pain while becoming stronger, inside and out. My mom always did yoga, she started when she was a very small child and she instilled the practice in me. We went to classes together, we meditated together and I know that she would want me to come back to myself. I am doing my best.
Yoga is a blessing in my life and I am so very thankful. I thought I would share this with you guys and I hope that you are all doing well, keeping safe and healthy.
Hi everyone, I have taken time to myself to mourn…. I thought it would be for the best, my Aunt passed away a month after my mom’s passing. So it’s been a time. At this point I feel like I need to try and get myself into a routine again, I will try to write more often, I will do my best to blog more and I have started a new project that I have been enjoying. I want to start working out again so it’s all rather…. good.
I have started counting my blessings again and doing my gratitude. I have beautiful friends and family. There are good things I have to start focusing on again. Life is super hard at the moment, besides what’s been happening in my own life. The state of the world is very worrying and my heart goes out to all of those who are suffering at the moment.
I just wanted to touch base with you guys, and say hello. I am alive and I am definitely going to start posting more regularly again. I do want to make some changes, add a few things and yeah, I have loads of ideas. I’m going to try and find my bliss and I want to keep you guys in the loop.
So, I’m going to leave this post here and I hope you are all staying healthy and safe. Don’t forget that you are amazing, loved and so special. YOU ARE ENOUGH!
So, here I am. If you didn’t know already my mother passed away two weeks ago. This has been an extremely challenging time. There have been endless tears, pain and relentless heartache. It was expected but the shock was unbelievable. I miss her more than I can say with words. That said, I just wanted to let you guys know that I am taking it one day at a time and I will be back to a more regular posting schedule.
I will hopefully stop crying for long enough to actually write a full post one day soon. So for now I will just wish you all a beautiful weekend. I hope you are all staying healthy and safe.
I know it’s been a long time but life fell apart. This had been the hardest week of my life and I wrote about it on My Shoes. So if you would like to have a read, please do. All I am going to say here is, please cherish your families, keep them close and love them with everything you’ve got. It hurts when you lose them.
I hope everyone has been keeping safe, it is super cold here so I’m trying to stay bundled up and warm. I am going to try and get into a normal routine again once life has settled down a bit. As always I am sending you all good vibes and love.
What are you grateful for today? As I have said so many times before. I think it is incredibly important to be grateful for what we have. For the good things in our lives, the things that make a difference. So I will share a few things on my list today. I woke up not feeling the best and life is not easy at the moment. My mom’s health is getting worse everyday. So here I am, I will list some of the things that I am grateful for today. I encourage you guys to make a list too. at least five things a day.
I am grateful for my body because it keeps me moving, it keeps everything working so that I can keep taking care of my family. I am grateful for my mother because moment I get to spend with her is a blessing. I am grateful for my family because they are there for me when I need them. I am grateful for the sun because sitting in the sun gives me energy and makes me feel so much better. I am grateful for my animals because they keep me smiling and positive. I am grateful for the food I eat everyday because it nourishes me and keeps me alive.
There’s a few from my list today. I hope you are all well and staying healthy. As always I am sending you love and light.
I find it amazing how we change. We are constantly changing which is amazing! That’s how it’s supposed to be! How sad would it be if we are just the same person for years and years until the day we die. I think as humans we need to change, we learn, we grow and I find that the most beautiful part of being human. Old parts of us die and new parts bloom. That doesn’t mean we lose the core part of who we are it just means we are improving ourselves, settling into ourselves.
One of the ways I have changed over this past year is I have been craving the daylight, the morning sun… it makes me happy. There is of course the charm of night but mostly I just like to sleep at night so that I can wake up to a new beautiful day. I have in many ways become more hopeful. Which is lovely. I have been finding more comfort in the ways I have changed. I have been pushing myself to learn and try new things. When we welcome change, there is so much more to learn. Ultimately I want to be the best version of myself. I am the only one who can create that for myself. You need to love you, you need to nurture yourself.
Finding Love For Yourself.
One other thing I want to mention here is loving yourself because it goes hand in hand with changing and growing. It is true…. How can someone else love you if you don’t love yourself? Louise Hay speaks of this often. I always encourage people to read her books, I have learnt so much from her. Anyway… If you don’t love yourself, you are always going to doubt the love others have for you. You will probably start fights or feel horrid about the relationship or friendship because you won’t believe their love. You need to love yourself first. That doubt will fester and break up your relationship or friendship. You won’t be fulfilled until you love yourself. Give yourself the respect and love that you are looking for from others. Your life will become so much brighter and you will be able to shine. No one will ever know you better than yourself. You know what you need.
I’m going to leave this here but I am as always sending you all so much love and light.
There are times when I am so dead on my feet. I want to give up and just sleep all day long. I know that I can’t do anything like that. I can’t just run away, I can’t stop living and ultimately I don’t want to but I’m sure you can all relate, there are times when life is just too much. When it hurts to breathe, to carry on, to keep smiling. There is no shame in that. Being human is hard. Living is hard but I try to remember the good things, the things that make me want to carry on, that make me smile, that keep me standing and moving. It is so important that we give ourselves the chance to believe in life again. 🙂
Life is so beautiful, it is magical and full of love and wonder. There is so much to appreciate and be thankful for. So the first thing I do when life is too much, when life is suffocating me… I make a cup of tea or coffee. I sit down with my delicious hot drink and allow myself a moment. I take a moment to breathe, to enjoy something simple and easy. Something comforting.
I want you all to know, that no matter what your life is like or what kind of hardships you have, your feelings matter and it’s okay to feel sad, or anxious, or however you’re feeling but remember to come back to yourself. Give yourself a big hug. Allow yourself a moment to feel better. Do something you enjoy. Find that time. Life wont fall apart and stop if you take a moment for you.
I have updated My Shoes. Please do go have a read if you’d like. If you don’t know already, My Shoes is a page I started, where I share my journey of supporting a loved one who has a terminal illness. No matter how far along your loved one’s illness has progressed I am sure there is something relatable in my posts over on My Shoes.
How have you guys been? I know it’s been a while. Life has been a bit difficult, I will post an update on My Shoes today too, my mother hasn’t been great. Therefore I have been away from my computer and I just haven’t been motivated to write but I’m trying to pull myself together now.
I have been getting nothing done. I guess that’s a lie but I feel like I’ve been getting nothing done. I have been making an effort to be outside. I sit in the sun everyday for a few minutes (get your Vitamin D!) I have been organizing all the clutter and I’ve been unpacking some boxes that were still sitting in the garage. That’s been pretty fun, since I’ve been especially nostalgic lately. I think one of my favorite things to do is decorate and make my house a home. There is nothing like a cozy home. Dogs running around, my childhood everywhere I look, familiar paintings and colors. My mom has always loved orange, and I must say, now that I have been unpacking all the warm colored decor, I feel so much better.
So what have you guys been doing? I hope you have all been staying healthy and safe. I know that this is just another season, it’s a time that will pass and we will all get through it. Times might be tough, but so are you! Whoever you are, where ever you are… I know you can find the strength and the courage to keep on living, to find your happiness and to be kind to yourself and others.
It’s good to stay clean and organized, an organized space helps to create an organized mind. So, today I have some free time and I think I will be spending it organizing. I have three rooms that need a complete turn around. I need to find spaces for everything and I want to deep clean the storage spaces in those rooms. One of the rooms is the library/ my studio, I need to move all the shelves and repack them. I have too many books and not enough shelves, so I need to get creative. Maybe I’ll post some pics of my finished shelves at some point. I just want to get it looking pretty first.
I have so many boxes to break down that have just been accumulating and accumulating over the past few months. It will open up so much floor space. Lets see how much I can get done today. I also need to vacuum… who here can relate? I love the smell of vacuuming… or is that just me?
So I look forward to more of an organized mind at the end of today, lets hope it all goes to plan.
I hope you guys are all having a beautiful productive day!
I don’t know about you and people usually think I’m crazy but I love winter! Here, the cold has arrived. We have said goodbye to our very long summer and the trees are losing their leaves. It is fresh and crisp, I wake up in the early mornings and take deep breathes, I smell the air outside… winter is in the air and it smells glorious.
Winter is a time of fluffy blankets, warm drinks and cuddles. I prefer winter clothes, the layers, the wool… Winter may be harsh and difficult but I am blessed to find comfort indoors, wrapped in blankets, cuddling with my dogs.
Winter inspires me to ask myself difficult questions, find ways that I may grow and improve, going into the new spring months. I use the cold months to get to know myself again. I allow myself extra time and slow movement. I find winter the best time to write. To sit in a corner all warm and protected, going on grand adventures with characters in my book.
Then there’s reading, who doesn’t love curling up with a good book? The cold air coming in through the window, hot coffee in your hand while you read.
You may not agree but you have to admit there is something charming and intriguing about winter, the circle of life, death and rebirth. There is much to learn from winter.
During this time we are all hermits, unless you have gone back to work. I have been home for goodness knows how long and the other day I spoiled myself and my mom to a meal from our favorite local coffee shop. The owner came out to deliver and we got to have a two minute chat outside my gate. Yes, we were both wearing masks and kept our distance but boy! It was strange talking to someone. Another human that doesn’t live in my house. Speaking to someone in the flesh is a whole other thing. I couldn’t believe my reaction, I was nervous and shaky! I have the known the woman for years! I had to giggle at myself.
I find it fascinating how our bodies and minds get used to being alone, away from other peoples energies. The minute I felt her energy I started shaking and I got tongue tied. It sure is going to be interesting when I can start leaving the house again. I’ll have to take it super slow or I’ll get really overwhelmed.
Do you guys have the same thing?
I hope you are all well and staying healthy. Sending out good vibes to everyone!
The birds chirping and singing to the morning sun.
Cuddles from your pets.
Stretching in the sun.
The feel of the earth beneath your bare feet.
Cool water quenching your thirst.
Listening to the trees singing in the wind.
A clean kitchen.
The smell of dinner cooking.
Looking at the stars shining bright at night.
I think it is very important to take note of all the small things that bring a smile to our faces, or make us feel peaceful. So I wrote down a few things that give me those good feelings. Once we become aware of the good things in our life, no matter how small, we invite more good. We deserve good things, things to make us happy and warm inside. Find those things. Write them down, become very aware of them while you experience them and be thankful!
I hope you are all keeping well and I wish you all a beautiful day!
I’m sure I have spoken about this before but it keeps popping up today. There is beauty everywhere. There is beauty in peace and in chaos.
I have been in slight chaos lately, it may not seem like chaos to others but if they had to live in it I’m sure they would be able to see the chaos too. Though, this morning I could see the beauty in the chaos. In my chaos. Once I could see it, see the worth in it, it started to feel better. It got less chaotic. Isn’t it amazing how just a change of interpretation can turn into a change of heart?What once was ugly, is now beautiful. What was hard, became easy. What was a chore became something I do with a smile on my face.
So I challenge you to see the beauty in your chaos, in your ugly, in your chores…. it will make a world of difference. it wont seem so harsh anymore. It will become better, easier and you will grow. We are here to see beauty, to experience the good things…. lets make more good things! Turn the bad into good.
So, yesterday I spoke of intuitive movement, today I would like to talk about intuitive painting. I find this a freeing activity. Once again, this is just for you, no ego is allowed in this activity. Still mind and intuitive movement.
What I do first is meditate, I will lay out my tools and paints in front of me. I will close my eyes and meditate, not for long, just a few minutes of deep breathing and calming of the mind. I allow my body to relax. I will then open my eyes and start painting. I will allow myself free movement with as little thought as possible. This is an activity of feeling not thinking. I use the colors that call out to me, I start painting. There isn’t a plan, just movement.
Whatever wants to come out, can then come out, in a healthy colorful way. Perhaps I will paint my tears or shapes representing how my tears make me feel. I may paint what happiness feels like, or love, loss, guilt…. there are no rules. What needs to happen on the page will happen. I find this is a good way of letting the overflowing emotions go. A way of moving away from the emotions to feel some peace. I lay it out on the page to better understand them, to accept them and then to let them go.
Besides it being a good way to make peace with yourself and your emotions, it’s also fun! Letting yourself run free with paint! It’s a wonderful feeling.
Do you guys have a special way that you like to let go of emotions?
As always I hope you are all well and safe, I am sending you all good vibes!