So today I completely broke down on my mat. It’s happened before and it will definitely happen again in the future. If you’re open to it, yoga has a way of healing your wounds but as we know, to heal the wounds, we need to feel the pain. Today I felt the pain.
This morning I woke up in pain, my body was aching… it felt inflamed and battered. The minute I stepped on the mat I knew that todays practice was going to be hard. Through the first few poses I noticed that I was carrying a lot of emotions in my arms, which is kind of new for me. Every time a wave of energy moved through my arms and down into my hands grounding into the earth, I felt like crying. I was half way through the practice and I broke. I collapsed onto my mat, my arms failed me… and I let it go. I cried there for a good ten minutes and then I felt the peace flowing over me. I was still shaking but my arms felt lighter.
This is what my yoga practice is all about, it isn’t about sculpting my body or becoming as flexible as possible. My intention in my practice has always been to heal. When I step on that mat, I am opening myself to healing. It hurts and it can be scary but it’s also freeing. After my practice I ate some lunch and I decided to take a nice Reiki bath. Coconut oil, Rooibos, Oats, Lavender and Rosemary… topped with a big dose of loving Reiki energy.
I’m still tired but todays practices nourished me and helped me release some heavily clogged up energy. I am so thankful.
I just want to remind you that it’s okay to break down, it’s okay to cry… Your body needs that, it needs to release that energy so that the healing can begin. Bottling up our emotions is never a good idea, eventually it could make us sick.
Be kind to yourself, let it out and then see how it feels trying to let it go. I know it’s not easy to let it go, but at least be open to trying.
Sending you all love and light.
Until next time,
Namaste.
Paint and My Mat 