Intuitive Movement

Hello lovely humans,

I was talking to someone the other day about yoga and daily practice, and how easy it is to fall out of routine. They made the point that because they were being so strict with themselves that it took all the joy out of it. I find that too much structure can definitely have that affect. Yoga is meant to be a practice that makes you feel good, that connects you with yourself and the universe… it’s not supposed to feel like an obligation.

As you may or may not know, I have been doing Yoga for many years and it’s always been a sporadic practice. I want to find a way to make it more regular but with zero pressure. I want to get back to the heart of my practice. So what I’ve started doing is intuitive movement. I get on my mat and just listen to my body. I often start with a good Forward Fold and then I let my body decide if I’m stepping back into Downward Dog or if I’m taking another route. Sometimes I start in Child’s Pose and take it from there. What I’ve found from doing it this way is that I’m excited to get on my mat again the next day.

Ultimately as long as we move our bodies and stay active, that’s all that matters. Only by moving our bodies do we get rid of all that stagnant energy. So give intuitive movement a try, do what feels good and remember to breathe! 🙂

Until next time,
Namaste.

We Are Enough

Hello fellow humans…

I know I’ve already harped on about Preptober (it’s not going well.) so I wont go into detail but I did want to touch on productivity and my lack thereof. We live in a world where being productive is everything, if we aren’t doing twenty things at the same time then we’re lazy, if we didn’t achieve everything on our to-do list then we’re lazy… We are constantly busy and judging others for not being busy. I don’t really judge others that much but I do judge myself. I can be so mean to myself if I’m not motivated, I will beat myself up horrendously if I don’t achieve everything on my to-do list. I compare myself to others, I see how busy and successful everyone else is and here I am, still struggling with existence.

The first thing I try to remind myself of is that everyone is different, success looks different to everyone. Yes, we live in an extremely busy world, we live in a competitive society, and a lot of the time it’s a judgmental society but why do we feel the need to compete? Why do we have to deal with other peoples judgments? We are all unique and we should start celebrating that.

So yes, I am behind on Preptober and I will probably be very behind in NaNo, I might fail completely or I might ‘win’, what matters is that I try and I do my very best. I could walk away with 20,000 words or 50,000 words either way that’s more than what I started with.

I guess I just wanted to put that out there… Your worth is not determined by others and what they deem enough. Be proud of every little thing you achieve, even if its just that you got out of bed today. I’m proud of you. 🙂

Until next time,
Love and Light.

Time To Prepare!

Hello everyone!

I can’t believe how fast the time is going by! It is October, which means it’s Preptober! I have to say I am incredibly behind on all things NaNo as per usual. I will be partaking this year in lovely NaNoWriMo, and I am determined to do some kind of planning.

I am a Pantser at heart but now that I’m busy with my third draft of what I’ll call… Project Home, I realise how necessary the intense planning is. (Unfortunately) I usually only start outlining after my second draft but this year I want to try something new.
This year, I am staring with the outline! (I know, shocking.) I will be doing an outline as detailed as possible for someone like me and preptober is the time to get that done.

So, I have announced my project already and I’m doing that nifty 6 week workshop that NaNoWriMo has so graciously shared. The workshop has been a huge help. I will hopefully have a good outline ready by the time November arrives and then it’s non stop writing from there on. Exciting times!

Are any of you partaking in NaNo and if so are you a pantser, plotter or planster? I once heard the term flashlight writer which I really like too.

Anyway, wish me luck for the outlining!

Until next time,
Love and Light.

Life Happens

Hey everyone!

Happy October! I can’t believe another month has flown by. I feel like I just blinked and the first week of October was gone. Granted I have been kept busier than usual.

Over the past few weeks I’ve been processing a huge amount and my brain is so tired. I got some news that knocked me for six, I saw some family and the stress is never-ending. I’ve realized some things about myself and I decided to go to therapy again.

I don’t know about you but I have never found it easy to ask for help, I’ve always shied away from being vulnerable with people. I’ve always fought my battles silently but it has come to the point where I can’t do it on my own anymore and admitting to that has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.
Losing people is never easy, saying goodbye is something that I have become accustomed to but now all those goodbyes have become too heavy to carry and I’ve started to struggle. Then my doctor caught me in a sensitive mood and I cracked. We went from talking about my diet to talking about grief. She then convinced me to get back into therapy. I am so thankful to her.

It is hard to ask for help, but sometimes we are forced to.

I had my first session today and even though I am feeling very scattered and overwhelmed, I am very grateful that I took that step again. There is no shame in needing help, there is no shame in needing someone to talk to. There is no shame in being vulnerable.

I encourage anyone who feels bogged down by life to go and ask for help, even if you just talk to a friend that you trust, we can’t keep bottling things up and expect a positive result. Life always happens and it doesn’t take much to break that bottle.

Anyway, I hope this finds you all well out there! Its a time of changing seasons and the end of the year is creeping up on us. Let’s all take a moment and think of something that we’re grateful for…

I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE AIR I BREATHE. 🙂

Until next time,
Love and Light.

Have A Little Dance

Hello beautiful people! Tell me, when was the last time you got up and moved around? It’s so important that we keep our bodies moving. It feels awful when our energy becomes stagnant. I was reminded of that today.

Today is a very windy day here, and I remember how I used to love the wind as a child. I would run out and dance in the wind, my arms open wide to the universe, a broad smile on my face. My mom never really understood my love for the wind, strong wind used to scare her… but she let me dance to my heart’s content out in the billowing wind. I would come back into the house with wild hair and ruddy cheeks.

So, with those memories fresh in my mind I went outside into the garden. Huge gusts of wind flew around me. I opened my arms and twirled. My body was stiff at first but after a while, I could feel the stagnant energy start to melt away.

Remember to see the magic in life, have a little dance and try to let go of all your aches and pains.

Until next time,
Love and Light.

I’m Alive!

Hello Everyone! Yes, I am alive.

It’s been a rough couple of months and I’ve allowed myself the space to feel every emotion. It’s important to give yourself permission to feel. I stopped doing the things that were adding pressure and only focused on the things bringing me joy and peace.

I’ve been writing and editing everyday, reading loads of books and watching my favorite shows. I’ve been living life to the best of my ability. My birthday was last month, technically my second birthday without my mom but it felt like the first. In that room surrounded by my family I felt her absence deeply. Listening to everyone singing to me, I was searching for one voice in particular… a voice I will never hear again. Even though the celebration made my heart ache in ways I can’t explain, I was very grateful to see my family again. I miss them so much.

Life has pretty much lost meaning for me, so I hold onto the few things that still spark joy. Grief haunts my every move and I long for my lost loved ones. Seeing them in my dreams each night used to bring me joy but now it only makes me sad. So many words left unsaid plays on a loop in my head.
I’ve turned to simple exercises to keep me grounded. I have a notebook dedicated to all of my little exercises.

I know I am constantly talking about affirmations but they really work for me. I make sure to listen to ten to twenty minutes of affirmations every day.
I write a list of at least ten things I am grateful for every day.
Then I will either do a mind dump or I will set a timer for ten minutes and allow myself to journal about all the things niggling my brain. Then lastly if I feel up to it, I will do my What I Appreciate About My Life Right Now exercise. In this exercise you need to list all the things you love in the current season of your life. It’s not easy but it does make my situation a little lighter, and how on earth can I expect things to get better if I don’t appreciate the good things in my life right now?

So, I keep on going and I hang onto life as best as I can. I will remain being kind to myself and I will keep pushing myself to rejoice in the good times and the bad. I will remain open to all lessons and keep learning from them. I can feel the tides turning and I’m waiting in anticipation to see what this next chapter of my life will hold. I will try to keep this blog going, but I cant promise a consistent schedule.

Thank you for reading this little update and I hope you are well and staying safe out there. Sending much love to you all.

Until next time,
Love and Light.

It’s A New Month

I can’t believe July is here. It feels like this year has just flown by!
June was a tough month full of struggles and lessons to be learned. I am hoping that July will be gentler. July is also another writing heavy month since it’s Camp NaNoWrimo! I am already behind, but luckily my goal is only 30,000 words for this month which is doable. I’m hoping by the end of this month my manuscript will be ready for proof readers!

It’s also strange knowing that my birthday is creeping closer and closer. My second birthday without my beautiful momma. I feel like big things are coming and I’m not prepared at all. With all of these feelings and emotions floating around my brain I find myself distracted and motivation is at an all time low, but I will push on and try to make July a brilliant month!

Goals for July

  • Finish the novel
  • Read three books
  • Ground myself outside everyday
  • 30 min of yoga everyday

I would say those are the big goals for this month. I can feel something coming and I need to be strong and grounded for the change on it’s way.

Here’s to a good July, may it be a kind month.

Until next time,
Love and Light.

How I Get Myself Out Of A Rut

So, I’m not having the best day… I’m feeling under the weather, I had way too much dairy yesterday so my nose hates me, I have eczema around my eyebrows and that pesky brain fog is still with me. My body is obviously telling me to slow down, all I want to do is eat my emotions and I’m manifesting all the wrong things. Sometimes we lose our footing, trip over reality and then freak out.

Today is going to be a day of doing the things that bring me joy. I need to find those good feelings and drench myself in them. Shall I tell you about some of my favorite things to do on a bad day?

Firstly, I make sure to have a nice cup of coffee in the morning, especially on the bad days. I know I’m not technically allowed to have coffee anymore but we all deserve a good cheat day every now and then. (Sometimes it’s more than one day a week. Oops.)
Then, I have something to eat… usually breakfast is my biggest meal of the day. (Food is important!)
I’m a person who finds comfort in background noise. So I always have movies or series on in the background. Especially my comfort shows. Today is The Vampire Diaries. I’ve lost count how many times I’ve watched all the seasons.

The big thing for me is not to get stuck on social media, when I’m having a bad day I need to force myself to be off my phone as much as possible. A good way to do that is by catching up on some writing! Writing sprints are the way to go for me, I usually sprint for 25 to 30 minutes and take 5 to 10 minute breaks between sprints.

I make sure that at some point during the day I get a good yoga session in, followed by a meditation or some chanting. Last night I dreamt of cleansing my space, so at some point today I will probably smudge the house. A good spiritual cleansing can never hurt.
Reading is another comfort, goodness knows my TBR for this month has a bit of everything so I have lots to choose from.

Then lastly a solo dance party is the cherry on top! At the moment Harry Styles is my happy music but who knows where the playlist will go!

What’s something that you do to help lift your spirits?

I hope you’re all having a good day and may the rest of your weekend be amazing!

Until next time,
Light and Love.

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